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A Tormented Mind

Smashing everything in sight

Trying to ease my tormented mind

Looking for a fight

Of any kind

You say you don’t know why I’m so angry

That you don’t understand

It’s because I want to be free

And the sight of you I can’t stand

A Tormented Mind
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About The Poem:

To the shock of what I am assuming is many of my readers, I have nothing to whine about this week. That’s not entirely true because I do have a lot to whine about. Maybe, I should say I have less to whine about than usual. I have had a pretty productive week. I have finished quite a bit of cleaning. And I even got some writing done. So this poem feels a little out of place. But that’s because it was written last week lol.

If you have ever been in a toxic relationship, friendship or just been around toxic people you can probably get this poem. Being around toxic people can make you feel tormented and mentally exhausted. And not being able to leave can sometimes make you feel as though you have hit rock bottom. That’s pretty much what “A Tormented Mind” is about.

Have you ever felt tormented? Have you ever felt like you have hit rock bottom and don’t know how to get back up? What do you do to deal with these negative feelings? What did you think of the poem? Do let me know your thoughts in the comments section located below because I would absolutely love to hear them. Or simply stop by and say hi!

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68 responses to “A Tormented Mind”

  1. Karima Hoisan Avatar
    Karima Hoisan

    Oh Pooja I totally get what you say about being drained and entrapped by toxic people. The two birds in front of the barred window in the image said so much too.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you, glad the poem and image resonated with you.

      Reply
  2. Milena Alien Avatar
    Milena Alien

    I love the poem, I can definitely relate to these feelings. When I think I hit the rock bottom I look back to see how much progress I have made since I actually hit the rock bottom… It was twenty some years ago when things were looking ugly, now I see them looking up. This huge leap of faith again and again made me a better person, less aggressive, more mindful. Introspection is the recipe I use to deal with moments of self-doubt and pessimism, they don’t last very long and I feel like I still have to grow a bit.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much. You’re right introspection does wonders and reminds us how far we’ve come. We all have some growing to do but as long as we are making progress it’s okay to fall back sometimes.

      Reply
  3. Tamara Kulish from https://tamarakulish.com/ Avatar
    Tamara Kulish from https://tamarakulish.com/

    I’ve been in relationships where I felt trapped. Those feelings of anger are very real. I’ve learned that feeling that way is a signal to get out, that it’s toxic and unhealthy for my mental health. 🙃

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yeah, that feeling is generally a sign that things need to change.

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      1. Tamara Kulish from https://tamarakulish.com/ Avatar
        Tamara Kulish from https://tamarakulish.com/

        Yup, we may not be ready to see it, but that’s a big symptom!

        Reply
  4. Wayne Thomas Avatar
    Wayne Thomas

    Hey there! Came across your post on the WordPress feed and couldn’t resist saying hello. I’m already hooked and eagerly looking forward to more captivating posts. Can’t seem to find the follow button, haha! Guess I’ll have to bookmark your blog instead. But rest assured, I’ll be eagerly watching for your updates!

    Thanks – TheDogGod

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much, stop by again soon!

      Reply
  5. Anjali Avatar
    Anjali

    Pooja, did you write this poem for me?
    This poem literally describes my last night’s conversation with my family, lol!
    I’m used to that shit now, though it still hurts, but I’m fine.
    I like the picture you’ve used!!

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      #browngirlproblems 😅

      Yeah, it still hurts since they’re family. But at some point we have to realise that they’ll never change.

      Reply
      1. Anjali Avatar
        Anjali

        True 😂
        Luckily, I’ve realized and accepted it. Which is quite good for my mental health ✨️

        Reply
  6. Rita Avatar
    Rita

    I love it! I completely identify! I’ve had many toxic people in my life, so yeah! Glad your week was better! Yay!

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks and hope all is well with you too!

      Reply
  7. DEVANG UPADHYAYA Avatar
    DEVANG UPADHYAYA

    Oh yes I’ve been around toxic people
    And I feel very upset all of the sudden.
    They have a negative impact and I don’t know how, but you can’t be happy around them.

    There were times when I was scared. Their dominance is terrifying.

    The poem is wow…..

    I love the art style you have shared with this one. Something different from what you usually share.

    Take care….

    And yes you had a productive week and I hope you have even better this week.

    Hey btw, recently I’ve came across so many posts that praised you and how you helped them. Made me very happy ☺️
    I’m happy to know you 🤓

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yeah, they just have this negative energy that ruins everything.

      Thanks so much. Yes, the art is quite different from what I usually share but I felt this went better with the poem.

      Who is writing posts praising me and why haven’t I seen them?? 😯

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      1. DEVANG UPADHYAYA Avatar
        DEVANG UPADHYAYA

        Find it by yourself 😝

        I see, how you positively impacted so many people 😀

        Are a real gem

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        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          Aw thanks!

          Reply
  8. Sadje Avatar
    Sadje

    I haven’t been this angry with anyone in ages but when I was, this poem is very relatable.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I’m glad you haven’t experienced this recently. I think over time our anger dies down and we learn to approach things more calmly.

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      1. Sadje Avatar
        Sadje

        Yes in our old age we became calmer.

        Reply
  9. Mother Wintermoon Avatar
    Mother Wintermoon

    Oh yes, I’ve been there, Pooja, and it is a terrible feeling. Your poem and the accompanying image expressed the feelings very well. All the best to you, MW 🩶

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks and really glad the poem resonated 😊

      Reply
  10. Geoff Stamper Avatar
    Geoff Stamper

    I go for a run when I hit rock bottom but writing a poem like that would work if I was a poet!

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yeah, poetry and exercise are both therapeutic depending on the person!

      Reply
  11. Barney Rubble Avatar
    Barney Rubble

    Got to keep working on myself. I can point at others, but 3 point back. I am far from perfect and it is important that I keep coming back to taking responsibility for me, and working on what I do have the power to change. Too exhausting expecting or blaming. A big reason why I stopped drinking in 99, and have stayed stopped, making my relationship with self the most important. No relationship is better than a bad one… and I was never a relationship addict.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I agree, your relationship with yourself is vital too. Sometimes we’re the toxic ones.

      Reply
  12. Shadia Avatar
    Shadia

    It’s not funny when the people tormenting you act like they don’t understand why you’re so angry .. gaslighting! Some people are immune to toxicity.. those lucky brave souls but for sensitive ones like mine, we gotta flee one way or the other.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      It makes me even more mad when someone gaslights me. I just hate it.I’m quite sensitive too and try to cut toxic people out as much as possible.

      Reply
  13. Destiny Avatar
    Destiny

    I think everyone has had these moments of frustration. Sadly… We just have to ride them until we learn to rid ourselves of them 🥴

    … love the poem, Pooja. 🤍✨

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yeah, we just have to ride them out 😫
      Thanks 😊

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      1. Destiny Avatar
        Destiny

        😂damage them with your imagination, Pooja. It’s so powerful 😋🤗

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        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          Of course, imagination is our strongest tool 💪🏽

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          1. Destiny Avatar
            Destiny

            😂🤗
            yes, I imagine it is.

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  14. Opher Avatar
    Opher

    That’s pretty toxic Pooj. Must have been a hard week!

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      It wasn’t the best for sure!

      Reply
  15. Jaye Marie and Anita Dawes Avatar
    Jaye Marie and Anita Dawes

    Over the years, I have learned to keep my anger under control. Nobody is perfect, least of all me, but I wish we could all be kinder with one another…

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I agree, we could all be kinder to one another.

      Reply
      1. Jaye Marie and Anita Dawes Avatar
        Jaye Marie and Anita Dawes

        Absolutely…

        Reply
  16. Maryanne Avatar
    Maryanne

    I felt tormented the past few days and had to end a 20+ year friendship with a woman I realized I could no longer trust. She just had this way about twisting every conversation and making it about her own political agenda, and trying to make me look foolish, which is unfair. And instead of calling me to discuss what happened, she continued to twist it around and make it seem as if I was the bad guy and she was the hopeless victim. (JUST LIKE YOUR POEM, saying she didn’t understand!!) I stooped low and called her every name in the book to get her to stop emailing and texting me.
    I rarely call people names like “dumb” but she pushed me to the limit.
    She finally stopped texting me.
    Interesting, though, when you move on and leave toxic people behind, something spectacular always happens — and it did!! 🙂

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Wow, that’s so sad. It’s always tough ending a friendship but she seems quite toxic so it’s probably for the best. I hate it when people gaslight like that and try to turn themselves into a victim. It’s so frustrating.
      Totally, once you leave the negative stuff behind you get something positive as a reward from the universe!

      Reply
  17. soapfan0802 Avatar
    soapfan0802

    Omg! I can totally relate to this post. I stayed in a toxic workplace for several years before getting the courage to leave.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      That’s awful, glad you finally left though.

      Reply
  18. vesnab7 Avatar
    vesnab7

    Yes, it is quite difficult to get out of such a relationship, because most of the time the victim is afraid to leave. However, it is not impossible.
    I’m so glad you spread awareness about many important topics through your blog posts.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      True, it’s not impossible but very difficult for the victim. Thanks so much.

      Reply
  19. Eugi Avatar
    Eugi

    I feel your poem resonates with many of us, Pooja. It can be difficult but one must learn to walk away from toxic relationships and not look back or feel guilty.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I’m glad it did. It’s always nice to know we aren’t alone in feeling a certain way.
      I absolutely agree, it’s difficult but the best way to deal with toxic relationships is to leave and never look back.

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      1. Eugi Avatar
        Eugi

        💖

        Reply
  20. Michele Lee Avatar
    Michele Lee

    Releasing to the page certainly helps and dancing it out, which you’ve also done recently, is a great mood enhancer and less destructive than “smashing everything.” 😅💃🏻😁

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Lol agreed, now I just dance or sing while cleaning when I’m angry 😅

      Reply
      1. Michele Lee Avatar
        Michele Lee

        😁👍🏻

        Reply
  21. Cindy Georgakas Avatar
    Cindy Georgakas

    You weren’t mad at all I can tell Pooja! Ha! Deep emotions felt and shared. I totally agree we have to move on and let go. I give Bataks to clients at times and we have a field day and they burn calories too! Yep… move em on out and move on.. agreed! ❣️

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Haha, you know me so well now 😅
      That’s awesome, keep moving while moving on!

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      1. Cindy Georgakas Avatar
        Cindy Georgakas

        🤣 That’s the spirit!! It’s off to the races💞

        Reply
  22. Kym Gordon Moore Avatar
    Kym Gordon Moore

    Oh yes Pooja, I agree, that being around toxic people can make you feel tormented and mentally exhausted. Time for them to go, or for you to make your exit. Don’t give them “your energy” to continue polluting your life. Very good post. 😊🙏🏼🤗💖🥰

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I absolutely agree, we need to make sure we protect ourselves from people like that. Thank you 😊

      Reply
      1. Kym Gordon Moore Avatar
        Kym Gordon Moore

        Yes girl. You are welcome. 🤗💖🥰

        Reply
  23. marouabourni Avatar
    marouabourni

    Lovely words👌 Pooja
    I can totally relate to them

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much 😊

      Reply
  24. dustyreviewer Avatar
    dustyreviewer

    I don’t really relate to feeling angry. I do frustrated extremely well but my emotional range is limited to not include much expressive anger. My innate response to toxicity is to separate myself from whatever it is that is making me feel that way.

    That said, I think it would be really cool to rage (assuming there were no real stakes.) I read about people getting furious and breaking things and I wonder how that would feel. I tend to just think “Oh man, why are you destroying your own stuff” or “oh, that’s going to be a big mess to clean up later.”

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I’m the same lol. As much as I like to smash stuff in my writing I don’t do that in real life. I don’t even slam doors. But I feel like it would be so satisfying to let go of pent up anger like that. Maybe if I find an abandoned place I can smash everything in I’ll try it someday lol.

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      1. dustyreviewer Avatar
        dustyreviewer

        Lol. You’ll have to let me know how that goes. I think I could do it but only, if it was someone else’s stuff.

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        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          Someone else you don’t particularly like lol.

          Reply
  25. sentikijamir Avatar
    sentikijamir

    Oh yes! I have been around toxic people but I was too naive back then to notice the patterns. Glad it’s over. Great poem!

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks and glad you’re not around such people anymore!

      Reply
  26. haoyando Avatar
    haoyando

    Sometimes we don’t understand that our mood is influenced by the toxic people in our life. When we start to be aware of it, it almost makes us feel guilty that we want to give up on a relationship. That’s my experience of dealing with my narcissistic relatives who never associate with anybody emotionally, and who torture everybody around them including themselves.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      True, those around us affect our mood so much. Narcissists just make everyone miserable. I have had similar experiences with narcissists too.

      Reply
  27. Pennize Pics Avatar
    Pennize Pics

    That poem was great! You definitely captured the anger and confusion a person can have in a unsatisfactory situation.

    Reply

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