Due to multiple comments about my awards posts and how they were apparently offensive this blog is now awards free. What was once one of the most fun posts to do have now become a constant trigger for my anxiety. This comment was the first thing I read when I woke up on Sunday and was so taken aback by how someone could misconstrue my words that I had a panic attack after almost four years without them. I have already been stressed and anxious and this felt like the last straw. Now whenever I think of this post or any of my awards posts I feel extremely anxious. Due to this I will most likely delete all my awards posts by the end of the week as my brain has now unfortunately associated them with negativity and I don’t want to feel constantly anxious when I see the awards category on my blog.
I would also like to say that words are very powerful and the way you choose to use them can truly hurt someone especially if they already have mental health problems. I receive quite a few hate comments most of which I delete without really thinking too much about them but this one really hurt my feelings. I have gone out of my way to help bloggers by opening a share and promote page. I answer all the questions bloggers ask me about blogging the best I can. I have tried to spread light and positivity on WordPress.
I don’t understand why people feel justified attacking me and then telling me to get thicker skin. Yes the Internet is going to have people who disagree and I am okay with someone disagreeing with me or with giving me feedback on how to improve my blog but I am not okay with someone attacking my character and accusing me of something I didn’t do. Please choose how you give someone feedback wisely because it could really hurt someone. Also people who are sensitive due to their mental health problems are allowed to do things they enjoy. Why should I stop blogging, put disclaimers or shut off my comments which bring me so much joy just because people don’t know how to just move on instead of leaving negative comments.
Anyway I apologise to anyone who may have found my awards posts offensive I did not mean to offend anyone in anyway. You know that I love all of your blogs and the only reason I don’t nominate people is because I don’t know who accepts awards and who doesn’t, plus I’m usually very busy with school and don’t have time to check everyone’s blogs to see if they accept awards. I’m also sorry to everyone who nominated me for most likely deleting the posts by the end of the week depending on how anxious I feel- I truly appreciate the nomination but the posts have just become a major trigger for my anxiety and panic attacks and I can’t have them on my blog anymore. Thank you for your understanding and thank you to everyone who leaves positive comments/feedback in a positive way on my blog you are very appreciated.