I Feel Like Me Again

Trigger Warning: “I Feel Like Me Again” is a bit of a darker poem so if that’s triggering for you please don’t proceed.

Your words wrap around my neck

Tighter and tighter

Leaving me gasping for air

Your lies pull the trigger

Again and again

Leaving me bleeding on the floor

Your indifference is a punch in the gut

Every single day

I’m left on my knees fighting to get up

You broke me

Without ever lifting a finger

Left me with invisible scars

That only I can see

And yet I smile the widest smile

Because I put myself together

Piece by piece

Stapled every wound back together

Twisted my bones till they were back in place

For the first time in years

I feel like me again.

I Feel Like Me Again


About “I Feel Like Me Again”:

There is something so unsettling about the image I used in this poem and I love it. It works so well with the poem. Also, I don’t know if I’m losing the slight bit of sanity I have left but does the girl in the image look a little bit like me? Not the psychotic look, just like in general lol. Also, the first image I created came out with three hands and a gigantic chest for some reason… Definitely looked a lot less like me…

The poem itself is about narcissism and how narcissists can sometimes break you without lifting a finger.

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76 responses to “I Feel Like Me Again”

  1. The photo may look like you, Pooja, but just 1% or less. i hope nobody experiences that.

    1. Thank you, yeah I think it’s just the eyes that are the same colour as mine. I hope so too, narcissistic abuse is terrifying.

  2. I’m glad you’re feeling like yourself again

    1. Thank you so much.

  3. Nice poem 🙏👍

    Aum Shanti

    1. Thank you 😊🙏

  4. Nice poem PJ !! This is **powerful**—a visceral journey from suffocation to survival, where pain is sharp but resilience is sharper. The contrast between silent destruction and fierce self-repair cuts deep. Triumphant, unbreakable, and raw. **You are your own salvation.** 🔥

    1. Thank you! I’m so glad you found the poem powerful and yes I think in the end we are the only ones that can save ourselves.

  5. The image is definitely unsettling. I think it may be more of an illustration of the soul of AI, lol. Great poem.

    1. Yeah, I think that’s more accurate lol. Thank you.

  6. iNDeeD Dear Pooja It Will
    Be Difficult Handling Someone

    Who Has Lost Their ‘Humanity’

    If They Ever Had it At All Most
    Often Sadly Precipitated By Childhood
    Neglect
    And Abuse

    As That May
    Continue on
    Through Adulthood too

    Yet of Course Some Folks
    Are Just Born Cold Only
    Feeling the Pain they
    Inflict on others

    As Their Only
    Real Chase
    In Life to Do

    Nah i Couldn’t Imagine
    You With That Face Yet
    True Hehe Some Days only
    The Shadow Within Knows Who

    We
    Really Are

    After Seeing Your
    Videos You Look Chill to me

    Not One to make too Big Of A Commotion

    With Your Face Yet i Could Be Totally Wrong too

    as Yes
    only
    the
    Shadow
    Within Truly Knows..:)

    1. Yes, sometimes it’s due to abuse/neglect and sometimes it’s just genetic. Either way, narcissism can be incredibly difficult to deal with. Especially living with narcissists.

      1. Oh Goodness hope
        That Challenge is not
        In Your Home it was
        Surely Destructive in
        my Workplace more

        Than
        Once

        Bringing
        Others

        Down…

        1. Yeah, unfortunately it is in my home but with therapy I’m learning to live with it.

          1. i Am So Sorry You have
            To Endure That Challenge
            In my 20’s Off And on
            i Lived With a Woman

            Who likely Had
            Border Line
            Personality
            Disorder

            Yet Toward The
            End When She
            Finally Broke
            Down Crying
            Telling The Story
            Of Her As A Small
            Child Her Sister And

            A Twisted Uncle
            With A Broomstick

            It Was Hard For me
            To Blame Her For

            Who She Became
            Yet Never The Less

            i Had to get out of That
            Picture

            Surely
            Am Able
            To Appreciate
            my Wife And Life

            More With That Perspective
            And It’s True There Were Others
            With Similar Horror Stories

            Opened Up
            To me So

            Many
            Places
            In Hell
            People
            Truly Live
            On Earth Even

            Believing in An
            All Loving Merciful
            God Who Tortures

            Their Enemies
            Forever After

            “Dictating”

            Love The Enemy
            Turn The Other

            Cheek indeed
            Personality
            Disorders

            Make
            Human
            Stories
            All Too Real
            Also In Religions
            Church And Or
            State Of Fear Hate
            And Ignorance
            Responsible
            For Most
            Harming
            Raping
            Maiming
            Killing Of
            All Of Nature True

            No Thanks To Human
            Created Nightmares

            i Bring Dreams To
            Fruition Based on
            Nature Away From

            Human
            Lies Torture
            And Misery A Long

            Way Home to Lift
            Ourselves And

            Others
            Up Dear Pooja

            May Nature Bless You 🕊️

  7. sour grapes

    1. The more sour the better…

      1. you like knowing the warts. the blues magoos. what of lazarus and kip keino eh? read dean and tom and sing it s not unusual for me to yell to my sissy hey dunderhead wake uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup! poor sissy is she!

  8. Each word was gripping and capture the essence of the suffocating destruction captivating us. She does resemble you a bit in coloring for sure!!!
    💪🏽🩷

    1. Thank you so much! Lol yeah I think it’s the skin tone and eyes 🤭

  9. A & J PEI Treasures/E Jean Simpson, BEd, BA, MA Avatar
    A & J PEI Treasures/E Jean Simpson, BEd, BA, MA

    A poem of brave rebuilding.

    1. Thanks so much.

  10. “Twisted my bones until they were back in place.” This is so powerful, Pooja. My eyes are wide open on this poem. Thank you.

    1. Thank you so much, I’m glad it resonated with you.

      1. You’re so welcome! (And yes, it did.)

  11. Beautifully written and emotive poem, Pooja. Your words are powerful, and empowering.

    1. Thank you so much, really appreciate it.

      1. You’re welcome, Pooja.

  12. Thanks for your like of my post, “Jews’ Distress 8;” you are very kind.

    1. My pleasure and thanks for stopping by as well.

      1. You are very welcome. Please keep up your good work.

        1. Thanks, you too.

  13. Nice poem 💜🌹🌺

    1. Thanks so much 💕

  14. Powerful imagery!

    1. Thank you!

  15. Pooja, I’ve definitely seen a shift of the content you’ve been writing of late. Would it be safe to say, I miss the old Pooja a little bit, is she lost somewhere, I can go search for her perhaps?

    1. Unfortunately, as we get older we change and evolve into different people. But maybe she’ll make an appearance once more someday.

      1. I will look forward to meeting her again 😉😘

  16. This is actually a bitter truth about the narcist. They believe they have the license to do whatever they want.

    1. Yes, unfortunately so.

  17. A stark description but does describe those who mentually enslave others very well.

    1. Yes, it’s a sad truth about what narcissistic abuse is like.

  18. Oh yeah! That’s definitely my favorite poem from you this year! No doubt! The power and strength that was taken away from you, felt so regained rejuvenated in the midst of your words. Absolutely powerful! 💪

    1. Thank you so much! 💕

      1. You’re very welcome! Of course! 😁💕💖

  19. Good Post

  20. Your words are truths, narcissists don’t leave marks anyone can see. Brilliant writing.

    1. Thank you. Yes, unfortunately the wounds are invisible to those that don’t carry them.

  21. I’m glad you’re feeling like yourself again.

    Powerful poem.

    1. Thank you so much.

  22. Your poem is powerful, emotionally impactful, Pooja. Well-done!

    1. Thank you so much! Hope you’re doing well.

  23. Hmm, three hands. So you can do a half more? Words of lies that strangle makes (sad) sense, metaphorically. Stapling and twisting to restore the person is (also) strong, poetic action and diction. Yes, she looks a little like you, minus the conniving expression.

    1. Haha something like that.
      Thanks so much, I’m glad the poem resonated. Yeah, I think it’s her skin colour which is exactly the same as mine and the eyes which are also the same colour as mine.

  24. Nothing as good as being YOU – the ORIGINAL and not a ‘copy’ . . .

  25. Nice poem pooja, narcissistics are unsahikkable their enjoyment is to make others unhappy and so tensed, eyes in the photo looks like your pretty eye

    1. Thank you so much and I so agree with what you said about narcissists.

  26. Love where this ended up. It’s dark but also playful, which is protective and healing.

    1. Thank you so much, so glad you enjoyed the post.

  27. The poem reminded me of one of the characters from Beetlejuice Beetlejuice, his wife to be exact. I thought the movie was funny but this one character sent me the goosebumps. It’s good to be healed I always say, let’s celebrate

    1. Ooh I love the second Beetlejuice movie and the wife, the way she puts herself together is similar you’re right. She was definitely a chilling character.

      1. Great movie! I like how it gives you optimism and things work out in the end

        1. Yeah, also that life is short so live your best life while you can.

  28. Darkness, yeah. And there’s much of it in the world. I didn’t recognize anything in the image other than a sort of sinister vine, and that’s NOTHING like you! I think it’s good to write about the things we feel, and to go in the direction those writings take us. It can be disconcerting, but writing it can be cathartic, and maybe that’s how we get to the stage where we can let go of the burdens we carry.

    1. Aw thanks so much! I agree, it’s so freeing to write is all down.

      1. You’re very welcome!

  29. This poem brought to mind a character from Beetlejuice—his fiancée, to be precise. While the movie made me laugh, that character gave me chills; healing feels great, so here’s to celebrating it!

    1. Oh yes, that’s how she put herself back together in the movie. Thanks so much!

    1. Thank you so much.

  30. Powerful piece, Pooja! 💞💞💞 May others who are in the beginning stages of your poem find peace and hope in their own positive ending! (that image looks like it would make a good cover on a horror movie)

    1. Thank you so much, I hope this brings them peace too! I was thinking that too! 💕

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