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The Brooding Of A Lost Soul

My Safe Haven

I stand before you

A broke and shattered version

Of who I once was

It was never the ups

Or the downs

That broke me

It’s was the stagnancy

That I truly could no longer bear

The feeling of despair

Knowing that it would never get better

Made life unliveable

Does anyone else hate when life becomes stagnant? “The Brooding Of A Lost Soul” is inspired by that feeling where you feel trapped and like that’s never going to change. I’m someone who dislikes change but also dislikes when things remain the same. I think I need a certain amount of both to stay happy and when there is too much of one I feel thrown off. I don’t know if I’m making any sense. I’m very sleepy right now you guys. But I have to power through because I have a dinner thing tonight and I have to pretend to like everyone and be nice. Well, I do genuinely like some of the guests. Others not so much. Shhhh, don’t tell them.

Also, I have a funny story for you guys but I think I’ll share it on tomorrows post. Back to the poem, I have been feeling a little stagnant recently. Probably since this month has been busy and I haven’t been able to go out just for fun in a while. First I was sick for like two months and now I’m just so busy. But once the wedding is done I have plans to go to some very fun places.

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102 responses to “The Brooding Of A Lost Soul”

  1. ofaworkingmom Avatar
    ofaworkingmom

    I thought of flying butterflies and the need to be free when I read your poem. Have you ever considered publishing your collections? To be honest, this type A personality of minds finds it difficult to be moved by poems. Yours always hits me.

    When is the wedding?

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      That’s an interesting way to think of the poem. Yeah, I’m working on a poetry book at the moment. I’m so glad you enjoy my poems.

      The wedding is this Saturday.

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      1. ofaworkingmom Avatar
        ofaworkingmom

        Thats wonderful (the book)!

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        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          Thanks, I hope I can publish it by the end of the year!

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  2. ianscyberspace Avatar
    ianscyberspace

    I guess I’ve never had a feeling of stagnation during my life. With me its more impatience that I’m not getting things done fast enough even though I do produce a lot.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yes, that can be a problem too. Sometimes we get very impatient.

      Reply
  3. Michele Lee Avatar
    Michele Lee

    Those times can be tough, but I’ve learned to look at them as times of respite. 🌻

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      That’s a really great way to think of them 😊

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      1. Michele Lee Avatar
        Michele Lee

        I am glad you think so. 😊

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  4. 100 Country Trek Avatar
    100 Country Trek

    These times are so tough. I love these words.
    Thanks Anita

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much.

      Reply
  5. snarebox Avatar
    snarebox

    Unrelated, lol, but because of you I’ve been playing with ChatGPT more the past couple days and I’m going to try generating a week of blog posts using it with minimal editing. While I stand by my opinion that it’s just a tool, it’s actually managed to be pretty surprising.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Lol, nice I look forward to reading them.

      Reply
  6. Nicole Smith Avatar
    Nicole Smith

    I know what you mean about being stagnant, and I also know what you mean about disliking change. Let me know how the wedding goes and is there time for a power nap?

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much. No I don’t think napping is going to be a possibility but I think I’ll get through it okay.

      Reply
  7. KeriC9 Avatar
    KeriC9

    Hits home and I know exactly what you mean. That’s the stagnancy I used to feel working office jobs and never having a social life.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yeah, that happens with office jobs. That’s why I wanted the freedom of being able to do things even while working.

      Reply
  8. Lokesh Sastya Avatar
    Lokesh Sastya

    Hi Pooja,

    Please shift and rearrange your thoughts, plus priorities.

    “I slept and dreamt that life was joy. I awoke and saw that life was service. I acted and behold, service was joy.” Rabindranath Tagore.

    Correction suggestion: It’s was the stagnancy

    Take care. My best wishes to you.😊✨

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks for letting me know, I’ll change that. And yeah a lot of times changing our way of thinking helps.

      Reply
  9. Milena Alien Avatar
    Milena Alien

    Stagnation is not exaggeration,
    I am proud to say it out loud,
    You need some space not to feel out of place,
    I wish you all the best, be sure you will pass the test.
    ( I hope you rapped it just like I did )

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Haha yes, I will be rapping all your comments from now on.

      Reply
  10. Destiny Avatar
    Destiny

    Very deep thoughts Pooja, I trust you had a deeper sleep😉

    You made perfect sense and I love your poem… Totally relatable 🤗

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much and happy to hear that 😊

      Reply
      1. Destiny Avatar
        Destiny

        🤍

        Reply
  11. Joseph Glidden Avatar
    Joseph Glidden

    To bare or not to bear that is the question? 😉 Hope you got some rest and are feeling better. Looking forward to you funny story.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Haha I’ll change that, thanks. Yes, I did get some rest and thanks.

      Reply
  12. Poet of the Light Avatar
    Poet of the Light

    Seems uncanny I wrote on the similar subject earlier today myself but won’t be posting until later.

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I see, I’ll read it when it’s up.

      Reply
  13. Avatar
    Anonymous

    Omg!! This sounds just like me!!! Beautiful poem…❤️

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much! 😊

      Reply
  14. Shahbaz Ashraf Avatar
    Shahbaz Ashraf

    It’s was the stagnancy
    That I truly could no longer “bare”

    Shouldn’t it be “bear” ?

    Beautifully captured the idea. Another short, crispy poem.

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yup, I changed it. Thanks so much for letting me know.
      Thank you, glad you enjoyed it.

      Reply
  15. Vidah Avatar
    Vidah

    It’s hard to hear that you like your titles, I guess😂
    Btw, I always love them.
    Every word of this post makes perfect sense💛

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Haha thank you so much! 😊

      Reply
  16. reeydah Avatar
    reeydah

    I loved the poem and I’d love to hear your story! I’ve also been feeling stagnant lately, even though I’m moving forward in a project I’m working on. Ah well, I hope a little change comes for us soon.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much! It totally happens sometimes but stagnancy never lasts which is the good news.

      Reply
  17. Shaunelius Sterns Avatar
    Shaunelius Sterns

    Sometimes things do feel stagnant. It’s like repeating things over and over but never moving forward, it’s like being stuck.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yes, it happens. But luckily it never lasts forever.

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      1. Shaunelius Sterns Avatar
        Shaunelius Sterns

        That’s true.

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  18. Anjali Avatar
    Anjali

    You’re completely making sense! Even i hate changes, but at the same time, i want life to keep moving . I don’t want it just to get stuck at a phase (unless it’s with my prince charming, jk lol! ). I’ve been feeling this for 2 years now, and that’s one of the worst feelings! I’m dying to get out of this phase of my life.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I’m glad you can relate too! Yeah some moments in life juts feel so stuck but the good news is that they don’t last forever.

      Reply
  19. atarigen72 Avatar
    atarigen72

    I know all too well the feeling of being trapped. I’m touching on this subject in a post I’m working on just don’t know if I will publish it. It’s getting long and don’t know if it’s any good.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I understand, sometimes we write just for us.

      Reply
  20. Mauro's Life Avatar
    Mauro’s Life

    “I’m someone who dislikes change but also dislikes when things remain the same.” how can you balance this?

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I just make sure I have a little of both. Have a some change and some stagnancy. That usually is the only thing that works.

      Reply
  21. Doug Avatar
    Doug

        I like the ups and downs of your poem. Sometimes when someone brings a wine glass on a roller-coaster, it shatters. Some build roller-coaster rides on the edge of a swamp. The person given the task of operating the ride walks through the mud to reach the big heavy stick that is pulled and pushed to turn on the ride so the children can scream but she gets stuck in the mud near the switch day after day.
        The stick-in-the-mud is hard to push. Stagnation is my middle name. It’s hard to tell the difference between still waters and stagnant waters. They say that still waters run deep(proverb — a quiet or placid manner may conceal a more passionate nature.[Oxford Languages]), but stagnant waters breed mosquitos. I suppose you’re supposed to make a big splash, a trumpet fanfare, a splash of paint, supposed to smash a champagne bottle against a new ship but even there, someone on the ship is standing next to a big stick, and a comedian doing slap-stick comedy is in danger of falling overboard. And a man at a table is lonely and bored. The trip goes on, the deck chairs are stagnant.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much. Yes, there’s a difference between stagnant and still. Being still is peaceful but stagnation feels really chaotic.

      Reply
  22. Happy Panda Avatar
    Happy Panda

    I SO relate. I don’t like change but I also don’t like to remain stagnant. Like I need some change/something different to make me feel like I’m alive but I don’t want dramatic change.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks. Both are too much on their own. But a bit of both is perfect.

      Reply
  23. Kirsten Avatar
    Kirsten

    I don’t like that stagnant/trapped feeling either. Love the poem! Relatable.
    Hope your dinner went well 😊

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yes, but luckily life has a way to keep things fun lol! It did! 😊

      Reply
  24. WellsFiction Avatar
    WellsFiction

    I believe it’s natural for humans to desire change. Although sometimes change can be dangerous or not necessary I feel it’s normal and ok to want some change once and a while 🙂

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yes, I think so too. Change is a normal part of life.

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      1. WellsFiction Avatar
        WellsFiction

        Totally!

        Reply
  25. Mark Edward Jabbour Avatar
    Mark Edward Jabbour

    Something to talk about in therapy. Come up with some mechanisms to manage the feelings of despair – that’s a strong/potent word.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      No time for therapy this month but I do have an appointment next month so definitely something to talk about then.

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      1. Mark Edward Jabbour Avatar
        Mark Edward Jabbour

        Just a thought- maybe read the poem aloud there?

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        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          Not a bad idea, I may just do that.

          Reply
  26. DEVANG UPADHYAYA Avatar
    DEVANG UPADHYAYA

    Hey interesting!
    I almost missed it 😝
    I don’t know what I was doing 😅
    Then I realised, tomorrow morning there will be new blog of yours 😂.
    You are one such person who needs variety, but not too much, that’s the idea. Relatable 😁
    Hey, an sweet poem.
    Such a terrific variety giver you are! ☀️
    .
    Where are you going?
    And how’s things with your YT channel?
    And what kind of people are tolerable for you?

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Lol, I was wondering why you hadn’t commented 😂
      I’m working on the YT channel, I can’t tolerate most people and I’m going to too many places this week 😂
      How are you doing?

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      1. DEVANG UPADHYAYA Avatar
        DEVANG UPADHYAYA

        Haha a busy person don’t have that kind of time to wonder about a comment 😝
        Jk.
        Wah, you said most people, that narrows the possibility of your favorite people 😂.
        Cool, more places means more pics and stuff and more stories.
        I’m doing good. Something new is that, I wrote my first blog on LinkedIn.
        I might do it frequently. This will give me an opportunity to be a better blogger. 😁

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        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          I like about a handful of people and that’s it 😂
          That’s great. Yes, LinkedIn is a good tool for. bloggers. But I think I neglect it a lot 😅

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          1. DEVANG UPADHYAYA Avatar
            DEVANG UPADHYAYA

            LinkedIn is indeed a great place.
            A writer of your caliber can rule it 👸🏻

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            1. Pooja G Avatar
              Pooja G

              Too bad I literally have no time left 🥲

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              1. DEVANG UPADHYAYA Avatar
                DEVANG UPADHYAYA

                Do you other people working for you?

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                1. Pooja G Avatar
                  Pooja G

                  No, it’s just me and I suck.

                  Reply
                  1. DEVANG UPADHYAYA Avatar
                    DEVANG UPADHYAYA

                    You don’t suck
                    You rock
                    Whenever I tell other people about my favorite blogger, they always wonders how that person manange so many things.
                    My answer is, it’s just her passion.
                    😊 And well yes, it’s your passion that allows you to continuously do this and be the best whiner, jk 😝
                    Rn, I’m waiting for your YT channel, that will be fun.

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                    1. Pooja G Avatar
                      Pooja G

                      No I just mean it sucks working for myself because I’m not great at working lol. I like to procrastinate 😂
                      YT should be official soon 😊

                    2. DEVANG UPADHYAYA Avatar
                      DEVANG UPADHYAYA

                      Now you need few sidekicks 😂
                      Waiting for yt 🙂

                    3. Pooja G Avatar
                      Pooja G

                      Lol yes, I genuinely need to hire some people soon 😫

                    4. DEVANG UPADHYAYA Avatar
                      DEVANG UPADHYAYA

                      Batman needs a bunch of robins!!

                    5. Pooja G Avatar
                      Pooja G

                      Agreed 😅

  27. Rita Avatar
    Rita

    Sometimes life is stagnant, but looking back you will see it as a welcome break from all the activities. When the next whirlwind hits, remember this and be joyful in life’s stagnancy. It won’t last long!

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yes, so true. In moments where we have so much going on it’s those stagnant times we miss.

      Reply
  28. TheUnknownReilly Avatar
    TheUnknownReilly

    Been in this place before. I think it’s worse in relationships because it feels like it’s evaporated into nothing than something.

    I’m right there with you feeling stagnant in life.

    Sometimes it means that a change is needed, sometimes not. Maybe its my body telling me it needs something simple like taking a walk.

    It is okay to want stability/routine and new things. Two contrasting things can both be true.

    Hope that you feel better, Pooja.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yeah, I totally know what you mean. Most of my relationships end because they become stagnant and it really sucks.
      .
      Thanks so much.

      Reply
  29. utahan15 Avatar
    utahan15

    life goes on
    brilliant!

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you!

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      1. utahan15 Avatar
        utahan15

        ppoooooooooooooof!

        Reply
  30. Reaseaorg Avatar
    Reaseaorg

    Great poem, the tide of change can be interesting, or damaging. Stability can be safe, but dull. An interesting stable life is one perhaps we should strive towards 🙂

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you and yes true. Both stability and change has pros and cons so an interesting stable life seems good.

      Reply
  31. Phyllis Youhas Avatar
    Phyllis Youhas

    I love the poem. I’ve been there with stagnation, but I love change. Keeps me on my toes.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much and yes change can be exciting.

      Reply
  32. Mr. Ohh's Sideways View Avatar
    Mr. Ohh’s Sideways View

    I read the poem. DON”T JUMP!! 🤣😎🙃

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Haha don’t worry I won’t 😂

      Reply
      1. Mr. Ohh's Sideways View Avatar
        Mr. Ohh’s Sideways View

        🤣

        Reply
  33. britcanwrites Avatar
    britcanwrites

    I liked the title of your poem, too. I actually thought it was going to be a short story. Aside from this, you had me cracking up at having to pretend to like everyone … I would love to be a fly on the wall for that one … in another post, please … exposure’s good 😁, okay, maybe not 🥴🙂. Looking forward to your funny story!

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Lol would love to do an exposé piece on the guest I don’t like but they will definitely see it and hate me forever so maybe not 😂 Thanks so much!

      Reply
  34. Pennize Pics Avatar
    Pennize Pics

    I like it, the poem that is. I can agree though that sometimes doing something a little different or changing something up helps with the same old same old of life.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yes, a bit of change can definitely be a good thing.

      Reply
  35. haoyando Avatar
    haoyando

    You don’t know how true you are in talking about the unbearable stagnancy. I am sorry to point out that so many of our lives, especially immigrants’ lives, are mired in stagnancy and repetitiveness. Sometimes it seems that getting older is the only change and making some money is the only goal. That’s so disheartening and discouraging. Our soul and our intelligence ask for more. This is just not enough for us…

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      As someone who lives in an immigrant community I understand. I feel like immigrants really hold on to certain traditional roles and this can also be the cause for stagnancy. Like women generally stick to housekeeping and childrearing with no breaks. And men are always working to provide. I think if we try to be more open to new things life wouldn’t be so stagnant.

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      1. haoyando Avatar
        haoyando

        I guess the insecurity, well the fear of insecurity really, is so strong that one would rather tolerate stagnancy and repetitiveness and extreme aversion to risk. You know I think the survival mentality is necessary, but the survival mentality is also extremely conservative, to the point of madness. Sometimes I feel that we are in Sartre’s play (the real life version) “no exit” and there’s really no exit. That’s how hopelessly conservative the immigrant community is.

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        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          Very true. I think the issue may stem from the survival mentality becoming too extreme. I think it’s very necessary in some ways but if you let it, it can really hold you back in life.

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  36. Cindy Georgakas Avatar
    Cindy Georgakas

    Love the title of this post Pooja and this..

    😹 “But I have to power through because I have a dinner thing tonight and I have to pretend to like everyone and be nice. Well, I do genuinely like some of the guests. Others not so much. Shhhh, don’t tell them. ”

    I’m calling them immediately..lol
    take care my friend and get some sleep! ❣️

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Lol, thank you! 🥰

      Reply
  37. Tom Avatar
    Tom

    Very powerful and heartfelt verses here – definitely recognised that dissatisfaction of letting life become stale and routine. Always good to shake things up 🙂
    Congrats on getting the book together! Hope it all turns out well <3

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much. Glad I’m not the only one that feels that way sometimes.
      Thanks you!

      Reply
  38. My Rollercoaster Journey Avatar
    My Rollercoaster Journey

    Love the poem! I understand exactly what you mean. It’s like you like routine until you get bored, then you like change until you get overwhelmed. Same. How was the wedding?

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much and yes that’s exactly it. The wedding was quite good.

      Reply
  39. ashogbond3gmailcom Avatar
    ashogbond3gmailcom

    This kind of your poet is inspired torch heart misery 💜❤️ poet ..nice one keep it up

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much 😊

      Reply

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