I stand before you
A broke and shattered version
Of who I once was
It was never the ups
Or the downs
That broke me
It’s was the stagnancy
That I truly could no longer bear
The feeling of despair
Knowing that it would never get better
Made life unliveable
Does anyone else hate when life becomes stagnant? “The Brooding Of A Lost Soul” is inspired by that feeling where you feel trapped and like that’s never going to change. I’m someone who dislikes change but also dislikes when things remain the same. I think I need a certain amount of both to stay happy and when there is too much of one I feel thrown off. I don’t know if I’m making any sense. I’m very sleepy right now you guys. But I have to power through because I have a dinner thing tonight and I have to pretend to like everyone and be nice. Well, I do genuinely like some of the guests. Others not so much. Shhhh, don’t tell them.
Also, I have a funny story for you guys but I think I’ll share it on tomorrows post. Back to the poem, I have been feeling a little stagnant recently. Probably since this month has been busy and I haven’t been able to go out just for fun in a while. First I was sick for like two months and now I’m just so busy. But once the wedding is done I have plans to go to some very fun places.
What did you think of “The Brooding Of A Lost Soul?” Let me know in the comments below. I actually quite liked this title. Shockingly.
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I thought of flying butterflies and the need to be free when I read your poem. Have you ever considered publishing your collections? To be honest, this type A personality of minds finds it difficult to be moved by poems. Yours always hits me.
When is the wedding?
That’s an interesting way to think of the poem. Yeah, I’m working on a poetry book at the moment. I’m so glad you enjoy my poems.
The wedding is this Saturday.
Thats wonderful (the book)!
Thanks, I hope I can publish it by the end of the year!
I guess I’ve never had a feeling of stagnation during my life. With me its more impatience that I’m not getting things done fast enough even though I do produce a lot.
Yes, that can be a problem too. Sometimes we get very impatient.
Those times can be tough, but I’ve learned to look at them as times of respite. 🌻
That’s a really great way to think of them 😊
I am glad you think so. 😊
These times are so tough. I love these words.
Thanks Anita
Thanks so much.
Unrelated, lol, but because of you I’ve been playing with ChatGPT more the past couple days and I’m going to try generating a week of blog posts using it with minimal editing. While I stand by my opinion that it’s just a tool, it’s actually managed to be pretty surprising.
Lol, nice I look forward to reading them.
I know what you mean about being stagnant, and I also know what you mean about disliking change. Let me know how the wedding goes and is there time for a power nap?
Thanks so much. No I don’t think napping is going to be a possibility but I think I’ll get through it okay.
Hits home and I know exactly what you mean. That’s the stagnancy I used to feel working office jobs and never having a social life.
Yeah, that happens with office jobs. That’s why I wanted the freedom of being able to do things even while working.
Hi Pooja,
Please shift and rearrange your thoughts, plus priorities.
“I slept and dreamt that life was joy. I awoke and saw that life was service. I acted and behold, service was joy.” Rabindranath Tagore.
Correction suggestion: It’s was the stagnancy
Take care. My best wishes to you.😊✨
Thanks for letting me know, I’ll change that. And yeah a lot of times changing our way of thinking helps.
Stagnation is not exaggeration,
I am proud to say it out loud,
You need some space not to feel out of place,
I wish you all the best, be sure you will pass the test.
( I hope you rapped it just like I did )
Haha yes, I will be rapping all your comments from now on.
Very deep thoughts Pooja, I trust you had a deeper sleep😉
You made perfect sense and I love your poem… Totally relatable 🤗
Thanks so much and happy to hear that 😊
🤍
To bare or not to bear that is the question? 😉 Hope you got some rest and are feeling better. Looking forward to you funny story.
Haha I’ll change that, thanks. Yes, I did get some rest and thanks.
Seems uncanny I wrote on the similar subject earlier today myself but won’t be posting until later.
I see, I’ll read it when it’s up.
Omg!! This sounds just like me!!! Beautiful poem…❤️
Thank you so much! 😊
It’s was the stagnancy
That I truly could no longer “bare”
Shouldn’t it be “bear” ?
Beautifully captured the idea. Another short, crispy poem.
Yup, I changed it. Thanks so much for letting me know.
Thank you, glad you enjoyed it.
It’s hard to hear that you like your titles, I guess😂
Btw, I always love them.
Every word of this post makes perfect sense💛
Haha thank you so much! 😊
I loved the poem and I’d love to hear your story! I’ve also been feeling stagnant lately, even though I’m moving forward in a project I’m working on. Ah well, I hope a little change comes for us soon.
Thanks so much! It totally happens sometimes but stagnancy never lasts which is the good news.
Sometimes things do feel stagnant. It’s like repeating things over and over but never moving forward, it’s like being stuck.
Yes, it happens. But luckily it never lasts forever.
That’s true.
You’re completely making sense! Even i hate changes, but at the same time, i want life to keep moving . I don’t want it just to get stuck at a phase (unless it’s with my prince charming, jk lol! ). I’ve been feeling this for 2 years now, and that’s one of the worst feelings! I’m dying to get out of this phase of my life.
I’m glad you can relate too! Yeah some moments in life juts feel so stuck but the good news is that they don’t last forever.
I know all too well the feeling of being trapped. I’m touching on this subject in a post I’m working on just don’t know if I will publish it. It’s getting long and don’t know if it’s any good.
I understand, sometimes we write just for us.
“I’m someone who dislikes change but also dislikes when things remain the same.” how can you balance this?
I just make sure I have a little of both. Have a some change and some stagnancy. That usually is the only thing that works.
I like the ups and downs of your poem. Sometimes when someone brings a wine glass on a roller-coaster, it shatters. Some build roller-coaster rides on the edge of a swamp. The person given the task of operating the ride walks through the mud to reach the big heavy stick that is pulled and pushed to turn on the ride so the children can scream but she gets stuck in the mud near the switch day after day.
The stick-in-the-mud is hard to push. Stagnation is my middle name. It’s hard to tell the difference between still waters and stagnant waters. They say that still waters run deep(proverb — a quiet or placid manner may conceal a more passionate nature.[Oxford Languages]), but stagnant waters breed mosquitos. I suppose you’re supposed to make a big splash, a trumpet fanfare, a splash of paint, supposed to smash a champagne bottle against a new ship but even there, someone on the ship is standing next to a big stick, and a comedian doing slap-stick comedy is in danger of falling overboard. And a man at a table is lonely and bored. The trip goes on, the deck chairs are stagnant.
Thanks so much. Yes, there’s a difference between stagnant and still. Being still is peaceful but stagnation feels really chaotic.
I SO relate. I don’t like change but I also don’t like to remain stagnant. Like I need some change/something different to make me feel like I’m alive but I don’t want dramatic change.
Thanks. Both are too much on their own. But a bit of both is perfect.
I don’t like that stagnant/trapped feeling either. Love the poem! Relatable.
Hope your dinner went well 😊
Yes, but luckily life has a way to keep things fun lol! It did! 😊
I believe it’s natural for humans to desire change. Although sometimes change can be dangerous or not necessary I feel it’s normal and ok to want some change once and a while 🙂
Yes, I think so too. Change is a normal part of life.
Totally!
Something to talk about in therapy. Come up with some mechanisms to manage the feelings of despair – that’s a strong/potent word.
No time for therapy this month but I do have an appointment next month so definitely something to talk about then.
Just a thought- maybe read the poem aloud there?
Not a bad idea, I may just do that.
Hey interesting!
I almost missed it 😝
I don’t know what I was doing 😅
Then I realised, tomorrow morning there will be new blog of yours 😂.
You are one such person who needs variety, but not too much, that’s the idea. Relatable 😁
Hey, an sweet poem.
Such a terrific variety giver you are! ☀️
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Where are you going?
And how’s things with your YT channel?
And what kind of people are tolerable for you?
Lol, I was wondering why you hadn’t commented 😂
I’m working on the YT channel, I can’t tolerate most people and I’m going to too many places this week 😂
How are you doing?
Haha a busy person don’t have that kind of time to wonder about a comment 😝
Jk.
Wah, you said most people, that narrows the possibility of your favorite people 😂.
Cool, more places means more pics and stuff and more stories.
I’m doing good. Something new is that, I wrote my first blog on LinkedIn.
I might do it frequently. This will give me an opportunity to be a better blogger. 😁
I like about a handful of people and that’s it 😂
That’s great. Yes, LinkedIn is a good tool for. bloggers. But I think I neglect it a lot 😅
LinkedIn is indeed a great place.
A writer of your caliber can rule it 👸🏻
Too bad I literally have no time left 🥲
Do you other people working for you?
No, it’s just me and I suck.
You don’t suck
You rock
Whenever I tell other people about my favorite blogger, they always wonders how that person manange so many things.
My answer is, it’s just her passion.
😊 And well yes, it’s your passion that allows you to continuously do this and be the best whiner, jk 😝
Rn, I’m waiting for your YT channel, that will be fun.
No I just mean it sucks working for myself because I’m not great at working lol. I like to procrastinate 😂
YT should be official soon 😊
Now you need few sidekicks 😂
Waiting for yt 🙂
Lol yes, I genuinely need to hire some people soon 😫
Batman needs a bunch of robins!!
Agreed 😅
Sometimes life is stagnant, but looking back you will see it as a welcome break from all the activities. When the next whirlwind hits, remember this and be joyful in life’s stagnancy. It won’t last long!
Yes, so true. In moments where we have so much going on it’s those stagnant times we miss.
Been in this place before. I think it’s worse in relationships because it feels like it’s evaporated into nothing than something.
I’m right there with you feeling stagnant in life.
Sometimes it means that a change is needed, sometimes not. Maybe its my body telling me it needs something simple like taking a walk.
It is okay to want stability/routine and new things. Two contrasting things can both be true.
Hope that you feel better, Pooja.
Yeah, I totally know what you mean. Most of my relationships end because they become stagnant and it really sucks.
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Thanks so much.
life goes on
brilliant!
Thank you!
ppoooooooooooooof!
Great poem, the tide of change can be interesting, or damaging. Stability can be safe, but dull. An interesting stable life is one perhaps we should strive towards 🙂
Thank you and yes true. Both stability and change has pros and cons so an interesting stable life seems good.
I love the poem. I’ve been there with stagnation, but I love change. Keeps me on my toes.
Thanks so much and yes change can be exciting.
I read the poem. DON”T JUMP!! 🤣😎🙃
Haha don’t worry I won’t 😂
🤣
I liked the title of your poem, too. I actually thought it was going to be a short story. Aside from this, you had me cracking up at having to pretend to like everyone … I would love to be a fly on the wall for that one … in another post, please … exposure’s good 😁, okay, maybe not 🥴🙂. Looking forward to your funny story!
Lol would love to do an exposé piece on the guest I don’t like but they will definitely see it and hate me forever so maybe not 😂 Thanks so much!
I like it, the poem that is. I can agree though that sometimes doing something a little different or changing something up helps with the same old same old of life.
Yes, a bit of change can definitely be a good thing.
You don’t know how true you are in talking about the unbearable stagnancy. I am sorry to point out that so many of our lives, especially immigrants’ lives, are mired in stagnancy and repetitiveness. Sometimes it seems that getting older is the only change and making some money is the only goal. That’s so disheartening and discouraging. Our soul and our intelligence ask for more. This is just not enough for us…
As someone who lives in an immigrant community I understand. I feel like immigrants really hold on to certain traditional roles and this can also be the cause for stagnancy. Like women generally stick to housekeeping and childrearing with no breaks. And men are always working to provide. I think if we try to be more open to new things life wouldn’t be so stagnant.
I guess the insecurity, well the fear of insecurity really, is so strong that one would rather tolerate stagnancy and repetitiveness and extreme aversion to risk. You know I think the survival mentality is necessary, but the survival mentality is also extremely conservative, to the point of madness. Sometimes I feel that we are in Sartre’s play (the real life version) “no exit” and there’s really no exit. That’s how hopelessly conservative the immigrant community is.
Very true. I think the issue may stem from the survival mentality becoming too extreme. I think it’s very necessary in some ways but if you let it, it can really hold you back in life.
Love the title of this post Pooja and this..
😹 “But I have to power through because I have a dinner thing tonight and I have to pretend to like everyone and be nice. Well, I do genuinely like some of the guests. Others not so much. Shhhh, don’t tell them. ”
I’m calling them immediately..lol
take care my friend and get some sleep! ❣️
Lol, thank you! 🥰
Very powerful and heartfelt verses here – definitely recognised that dissatisfaction of letting life become stale and routine. Always good to shake things up 🙂
Congrats on getting the book together! Hope it all turns out well <3
Thanks so much. Glad I’m not the only one that feels that way sometimes.
Thanks you!
Love the poem! I understand exactly what you mean. It’s like you like routine until you get bored, then you like change until you get overwhelmed. Same. How was the wedding?
Thanks so much and yes that’s exactly it. The wedding was quite good.
This kind of your poet is inspired torch heart misery 💜❤️ poet ..nice one keep it up
Thanks so much 😊