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An Abyss Of Darkness

Head pounding

Hands shaking

Cold and sweating

Out of breath

Barely awake

The darkness

Closing in

Nothing left

To fight for

Only an abyss of darkness

Calling my name

An Abyss Of Darkness
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About “An Abyss Of Darkness”:

Honestly, I am not really sure where this poem came from. Sometimes things just come to you, you know. I don’t know if any of the other writers or poets on WordPress experience that. I think this poem has to do with something I was talking to my therapist about recently. It’s pretty much about what it feels like to be in a depressive episode. Where it sort of feels like the darkness is closing in on you. And it really feels like you have nowhere else to go but down. At least that’s my experience with it. I know everyone has their own experiences and descriptions of what depression feels like to them. Even personally, it can feel like a lot of different things depending on where I am at with a depressive episode.

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80 responses to “An Abyss Of Darkness”

  1. Sadje Avatar
    Sadje

    It very emotive poem Pooja. The feelings are well expressed.

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much

      .

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      1. Sadje Avatar
        Sadje

        You’re most welcome

        Reply
  2. we are together Avatar
    we are together

    Poetic expression is one of the best way to express yourself

    Keep sharing
    You are not alone
    We are together

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much. Absolutely, poetry is a great form of expression.

      Reply
  3. Milena Alien Avatar
    Milena Alien

    The good news is after hitting the rock bottom, you bounce right back. I have been there, I don’t have a therapist I can talk to about it but I think it would be very helpful to have one. I also noticed that in the darkest moments it’s always good to have options in front of you, like talking to a friend, leaving your trigger behind or starting a new page. Or maybe all of the above. When I feel depressed I give myself reasonable options, you can stay at home and sleep all day or talk to a professional or go out to eat. I promise myself those rewards even if I hardly ever do that.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Absolutely, the thing about rock bottom is that there’s no way to go but up.

      Reply
    2. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I usually talk to a therapist or my bestie when I’m feeling down and yeah that does help a lot.

      Reply
  4. Warren Avatar
    Warren

    will do

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks

      Reply
  5. John Avatar
    John

    We Are Together is right, you are not alone, Pooja. We are here. ❤️

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much and yes absolutely, it really helps knowing I’m not alone ❤

      Reply
      1. John Avatar
        John

        🤙🏻❤️❤️

        Reply
        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          ❤😊

          Reply
  6. Samantha Burgett Avatar
    Samantha Burgett

    So many of us have been here (me included) yet not everyone feels they can voice it. 🤍 Sharing our experiences and vulnerabilities like this brings us closer and is so healing in its own way, by showing we aren’t alone. Wonderfully expressed. Sending you a virtual hug! 🤍

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much! Absolutely, many of us have been in a dark place but luckily things do get better even if they take a while to do so.

      Reply
  7. bacchorpererro Avatar
    bacchorpererro

    I call it “the dark cupboard”, I guess because as I feel the darkness envelope me I just want to close the door on the world and shut myself away.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      That makes a lot of sense and I understand that feeling.

      Reply
  8. DEVANG UPADHYAYA Avatar
    DEVANG UPADHYAYA

    Take care PG!
    Wishing you some sunshine 😁

    And hugs🤗

    And chocolate maybe( plant based) 🍫🫑 🥦
    Special capsicum and broccoli chocolate for you

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much, haha yes I love vegan chocolate 🍫

      Reply
      1. DEVANG UPADHYAYA Avatar
        DEVANG UPADHYAYA

        Best!!
        Take care dear

        Reply
  9. Jixi Fox Avatar
    Jixi Fox

    Yes yes I agree with the poem. It’s like this weird space I call it. I just wrote something similar. It’s so wild. Like its a hanging and dragging feeling I feel is happening. I blame it on my bad food, and I need get more sunlight and fresh air. More walks are in my plans as well.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much. Absolutely it’s like you’re numb but also feeling down. Sunlight and a healthy diet helps a lot. Especially sunlight. So many of us are deficient in vitamin D but don’t realise it.

      Reply
  10. J M Negi Avatar
    J M Negi

    Great lines, thanks.

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much.

      Reply
  11. Destiny Avatar
    Destiny

    emotions seeking an exit… when I write this way (though almost never shared here lol). rapid flow, it feels so… not sure if this makes sense lol.
    enjoyed the way you expressed yourself in your poem and sending hugs too🤗🤍

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I totally get it, in many ways writing is literally like therapy. It’s an outlet. Thanks so much 🤗

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      1. Destiny Avatar
        Destiny

        always a pleasure 🤍🤗

        Reply
  12. byngnigel Avatar
    byngnigel

    This poem is soaked with emotions. I can totally relate as I have my own struggles with darkness. Wonderful poetry Pooja.. gonna go check out your friend now. .hope you’re well my dear 🙏

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much. True, many of us experience these negative emotions. It’s not easy but we have to keep fighting. I am, thank you 😊

      Reply
      1. byngnigel Avatar
        byngnigel

        👏👏👏💙

        Reply
  13. Shadia Avatar
    Shadia

    I have learnt from experience that depression is actually a blessing. In the words of Jim Carrey—a deep rest from the character that you have been trying to play.
    It’s a call to change, to start over, to grow, to be better “rock bottom is the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life” JK Rowling.
    Have a beautiful day.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Absolutely, I think rock bottom can often be a wake up call. And it reminds us that we need to make some changes.
      Have a beautiful day too.

      Reply
  14. Opher Avatar
    Opher

    Not a good day then??

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I’ve had better but luckily nothing is permanent.

      Reply
  15. Stella Reddy Avatar
    Stella Reddy

    Great words Pooja and yes, they resonated with me.
    As for the blog, I will check it out!

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much!

      Reply
  16. muktaverma Avatar
    muktaverma

    Each person’s experience with depression is unique, and this poem captures a relatable portrayal of depression,

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Absolutely, each experience is unique but bares some similarities.

      Reply
  17. utahan15 Avatar
    utahan15

    human machine
    divine design
    gupta
    woman so fine
    holy christ!

    quiet dirty warren!~

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Even divine powers create errors sometimes 😫

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      1. utahan15 Avatar
        utahan15

        negative gupta. sanjay blown to hell. momma indira too. shiva . what do you say. pray today .

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      2. utahan15 Avatar
        utahan15

        half empty gupta. shocking!

        Reply
  18. Eugi Avatar
    Eugi

    Beautiful capture of emotive feelings, Pooja! As my mother used to say – rise up above it! Hugs. ❤️

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much! ❤

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      1. Eugi Avatar
        Eugi

        You’re welcome, Pooja.

        Reply
  19. clcouch123 Avatar
    clcouch123

    I think you’re right. Sometimes a small assocation turns into something. An association so small as to be forgotten later. I think you’re right about an abyss and darkness. Somestimes this is all we feel.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks. Yup, it feels like that sometimes.

      Reply
  20. iambrotherlove Avatar
    iambrotherlove

    indeed, sometimes things do come to your mind and you write it down, whether its from inspiration, a conversation, a memory and so forth. It’s happened to me too. Agreed, how everyone experiences darkness is different, aside from the similarities. But one day at a time and you will rise back from rock bottom.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yeah, writing helps me process things a lot. Absolutely, rock bottom sucks but slowly we get better.

      Reply
  21. A & J PEI Treasures/E Jean Simpson, BEd, BA, MA Avatar
    A & J PEI Treasures/E Jean Simpson, BEd, BA, MA

    Best wishes!

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks!

      Reply
  22. Daily Interesting Blogs Avatar
    Daily Interesting Blogs

    Beautiful words for the remarkable poem, Pooja👍👍👍😊🥰🧿

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much 😊

      Reply
      1. Daily Interesting Blogs Avatar
        Daily Interesting Blogs

        😊🥰🙏🙏🙏

        Reply
  23. Manoj Mehra Avatar
    Manoj Mehra

    Nice poem. It completely conveys the emotions.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much.

      Reply
  24. CurvyElvie Avatar
    CurvyElvie

    You describe a depressive episode like it reall6 is. Thank you for a beautiful post.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much.

      Reply
  25. Mr. Ohh's Sideways View Avatar
    Mr. Ohh’s Sideways View

    Great poem! But are you sure it’s darkness calling? It could be just bad potato salad. 🤣😎🙃

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      You know, it absolutely could be bad potato salad now that I think about it 🤔😅

      Reply
  26. chuck choate Avatar
    chuck choate

    “ Sometimes things just come to you. You know.”

    Your phrase grabbed me. The closest I have ever heard anyone come to describing the way story ideas happen for me. In my experience, an idea suddenly pops up in my brain and just stubbornly sits there, unmoving, unwilling to be dismissed, nagging at me like a petulant child. Sometimes I can push it aside for a time. Sometimes I can even completely forget it, for a time. But once it is there and announces its presence, I know that unless and until I deal with it, flesh it out, it will NEVER go away.

    Once written and explored, sometimes as a story, sometimes, just as a simple social media post, its fever leaves my brain and I can let it begin to live its own little life without having to be pestered by its relentless, stubborn demand for attention.

    Thank you for writing your poem and the explanation of how your ideas happen. Discovering your post and your phrase made me happy.

    Warmest regards. 
    Chuck Choate
    Chuck-Choate.com
    merlechoate@gmail.com

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much. I am glad that you found it relatable and that you feel the same way I do when it comes to writing. It’s honestly the same for me, when an idea pops into my head I just need to write it or it keeps gloating around up there. Even if it’s the middle of the night, I just have to write it down.

      Really happy to hear it made you happy.

      Reply
    2. Bianca Alina Avatar
      Bianca Alina

      This is such a powerful poem! I know this feeling.
      I hope you are well, Pooja ❤️.

      Reply
      1. Pooja G Avatar
        Pooja G

        Thank you so much and hope you’re well too ❤️

        Reply
        1. Bianca Alina Avatar
          Bianca Alina

          It’s my pleasure! Your poem is very well-written and emotive. I am well, thank you!
          Have a lovely weekend, Pooja! ❤️🌹

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          1. Pooja G Avatar
            Pooja G

            Thanks so much again. Have a lovely week ahead! ❤️

            Reply
            1. Bianca Alina Avatar
              Bianca Alina

              ❤️🌹

              Reply
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  28. Belladonna Avatar
    Belladonna

    Totally know this feeling! Praying that all is well my friend.

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much, yes I’m much better!

      Reply
      1. Belladonna Avatar
        Belladonna

        You’re welcome, I’m so glad to know that Pooja!

        Reply
  29. Gertrude_n Avatar
    Gertrude_n

    Yes, there are times I feel like I’ve hit rock bottom in a particular area of my life.
    It happens once in awhile after an unpleasant encounter.
    But that feeling goes after I have slept.

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yeah, fortunately the feeling rarely lasts for long periods. At least in our experience.

      Reply
  30. Steve Avatar
    Steve

    The poem is a powerful expression of those dark feelings. Well done. I have had ideas that seemed to come from nowhere, too, and I think you’re right that it could be because you were talking about similar things, so they were in your subconscious mind. Great post.

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much. Really appreciate that. Yeah, I think some of those thoughts remain in our mind and inspire our writing.

      Reply
  31. Rita Avatar
    Rita

    Love it. Very true and descriptive!

    Reply
    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much!

      Reply
  32. judeitakali Avatar
    judeitakali

    Thanks for sharing, Pooj. I experienced what I think was a sudden and deep depression once(bit of a long story). Occasionally it resurfaces but doesn’t last for as long as that first time. But I’m not even sure if it *is depression. I feel you, and your struggle, and you inspire me many a time. And your poem was deep and dark and you know I like my dark writing 😜.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much. Sorry you experience that too, unfortunately many of us have depressive episodes sometimes. The best thing we can do is keep fighting.

      Reply

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