It’s Been The Worst Month Of My Life

Remember when I was like October is my favourite month, I’m so excited for this month, it’s going to be amazing? Yeah, turns out the universe took that as a challenge and was like “you wanna bet?” In the end, this month has turned out to officially be the worst month of my life. Truly, the worst month I have ever had in my entire existence.

Between my tongue being messed up because of my B12 deficiency (my fault I kept forgetting to take my supplements) which will take months to heal, feeling like I’m taking two steps back with my therapy and healing journey, and reading two of the worst books I’ve ever read, this month had no chance. And all those things are just the tip of the iceberg. A lot of stuff I can’t share on here has happened too that has thrown me off.

For whatever reason, this month has truly decided to kick me in the crotch and spit in my face. If you’re putting the evil eye on me, please stop. You win, okay?

But the silver lining is that I have friends and family that constantly check in and go out of their way to look out for me. I am so grateful for each of them. I know I’m bad at replying, I want to be alone when I’m sad but the fact that they stick around is amazing.

And this isn’t a pity party post, life will go on. I just needed to rant and it’s 2026 which means I’ll do it on the internet. So yes, it’s been the worst month of my life and there’s still over a week to go. You know what? Just wake me up when October ends.

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135 responses to “It’s Been The Worst Month Of My Life”

  1. Sending you good vibes and hoping things get better!

    1. Thank you so much!

  2. Sending you love and hugs

    1. Thank you so much 💗

      1. Take care

  3. When I read your title, I could immediately relate for this October has been the worst month of my life too.
    A lot of disastrous things happened to me in September but they seem to be carrying over into October and accelerating.

    1. Oh no, I’m so sorry to hear that. I truly hope you feel better and that life improves soon.

        1. You’re most welcome 🙏

  4. I’m so sorry to hear that October has been the absolute worst month for you. It’s been awful over here too, though I would say that July 2026 was definitely the most gut-wrenching, heartbreaking month so far this year.

    Wow, I never knew B12 deficiency could cause tongue issues! It makes me want to look into it. Have you considered B12 shots? They absorb so much better than pills, which usually don’t do much. I wonder if it’s related to being vegetarian/vegan? 🌱 I really hope you get some relief soon. Sending you good vibes!

    1. Oh no, I’m so sorry you’re having a hard time too. I don’t know what it is with this year but everything seems to be coming apart.

      I think I’m going to have to switch to the shots because the pills aren’t doing much. I think it’s probably diet + absorption issues 😭 Thank you! ☺️

  5. Hang on tight, Pooja, this will pass. Life can be like a huge wave, you ride the wave from trough to crest and back to trough. We go down and we come up again. Stay strong! ❤️

    1. Thank you so much! That’s so true, some months are just more difficult but we get through them. ❤️

  6. Dang! I’m sorry, Pooja! Here’s to November!

    1. Thank you! I’m afraid to agree in case November somehow turns out to be even worse 😭

  7. The Mindful Migraine Blog Avatar
    The Mindful Migraine Blog

    ooph! sorry to hear – only a few more days of October to go… xx

    1. Fingers crossed this bad luck passes by then 🤞🏽

  8. Hey Pooj, sorry it was so tough, what would you do differently if you had a second chance? What would you ignore and what would you highlight to make it better? There is no point crying over the spilled milk but just for the sake of the future octobers… Get better! Don’t give up! Get some protection from evil eye etc. do what it takes

    1. Honestly, I have no idea. I feel like the stuff that happened was sort of out of my control but I guess I could have reacted better to it. Thank you so much, trying to focus on my hobbies because that always helps!

      1. Good to hear that, I hope when it’s over you feel much better and life treats you nicer. Hopefully November is when things happen for the best outcome possible

        1. I hope so, I hope November is boring and peaceful because I’ve had enough of the ups and downs lol.

  9. Hoping that things change soon!

    1. Fingers crossed!

  10. thomasstigwikman Avatar
    thomasstigwikman

    I am so sorry about this month. I hope things will get better soon.

    I did not know that about B12 defiency. Earlier this year I had D vitamin poisoning from eating too many D vitamin gummies. It can go both ways. However, that was entirely my fault.

    1. Thanks, I hope so too.

      Oh yeah, I remember that. We have to be so careful with supplements because too much or too little are equally as dangerous.

  11. That just means the only way to go is up, right? I find it helpful to look at my blessings, like having a roof over my head, food to eat, ability to help others, etc. Even the sunshine is a wonderful blessing! I know things look bleak, but sometimes life is just like that. Take care of yourself and know that I am praying for you!

    1. That’s true, I still have a lot to be grateful for! Thank you so much, really appreciate it.

  12. I’m sorry to hear that, but I get it. I’m in a similiar boat on unpaid sick leave

    1. That’s awful, I’m sorry to hear that. Hope you feel better really soon.

  13. 🙏🌹

    Aum Shanti

  14. Glad You Have this Avenue to Express All You’re feeling DarK Thru LiGHT

    Dear Pooja surely not Good to Trap it all Inside

    Sorry Your Month has been so challenging

    Wishing for Your Life to become

    more peaceful in ease

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    1. I’m glad too, it helps a lot to just let it all out. Thank you so much ☺️🙏

      1. You’re Very welcome
        Dear Pooja With
        SMiles☺️🙌🙏

  15. Sending you good energy.💫

    1. Thank you so much ☺️

  16. Send you good vibes and hugs. Wishing you a speedy recovery 🤗.

    1. Thank you so much, really appreciate it 🤗

      1. You’re most welcome, Pooja.

  17. just a few more days, Pooja…and you can shut the door on this month….

    love and hugs your way…🤍🤗

    1. Fingers crossed the bad luck streak will end with the month 🤞🏽 Thank you so much 🤗

      1. amen …🤞
        most welcome, Pooja..🤍🤗

  18. I think since things have kind of sucked this month, you might want to consider watching a terrible movie or two and get it out of the way. 🙂

    1. Ha! That might be the best thing to do right now. Any terrible movie suggestions?

      1. Rocky 4. I watch bad movies when im sick.

        1. Sometimes bad movies help. Will check out Rocky 4.

          1. There’s a bad 80’s music montage like every 10 minutes.

            1. That’s true, random bad 80’s music always makes me happy.

  19. Hope things get better soon 🙏🏻

    1. Thank you so much 🙏

  20. I’m sorry to hear that you had the worst month. I hope things get better soon for you. 🙏

    1. Thank you so much, really appreciate it 🙏

  21. Kind of an odd post for a like😳 all things do pass . November will be better.

    1. Thank you, hope so ☺️

  22. Catherine of VegCharlotte Avatar
    Catherine of VegCharlotte

    Oh, so sorry! My October has been similar, but due to this, that, and the other, all my Fall plans were pushed aside and I’m only now getting ready for the Autumn – ten days before Halloween! A little pep talk for you, though – your tongue may heal faster than you think! I had B12 deficiency a few years ago. My doofus doctor didn’t want me taking any vitamins/supplements at that time, even though I’ve been “prescribed” it for ongoing B12 issues. Only it didn’t just affect my tongue, it affected my FEET! I felt like I was walking on pebbles all the time and had to wear several pairs of socks! But it all cleared up really surprisingly quickly once I started B12 back. If your tongue problems linger, you can also ask about B12 injections and those might clear up your issues right away. Good luck and good vibes!

    1. Oh no, that sucks but at least you have ten more days to enjoy the month and the Halloween vibe!
      Some doctors are so incompetent it’s crazy. Can’t believe it affected your feet too, I had no idea it could do that! I’m glad it cleared up though. I think I’m going to switch to the injection next month regardless because the pills don’t seem to be working that much even in general. Thank you!

  23. Sadly, we’ve all had those before 🙁

    and while it is pretty natural to want to retreat and curl up and isolate, I’m glad you’re not doing that. Posting about this is reaching out. Because you are not alone. While you and I aren’t real life friends, and even our online friendship is slight, we have a positive connection. I can’t solve your problem, but I can be here and help you remember that you’re not a lone. Every little positive bit helps.

    So I’m sorry you’re having a terrible time and we’ll all be here for you.

    1. Yeah, I mean I want to disappear for a bit but I know that’s not a healthy way to deal with having a rough time. And talking about it on here actually did help. I truly appreciate that, thank you so much. 😀

  24. amidlifeadventure@icloud.com Avatar
    amidlifeadventure@icloud.com

    Sending love from across the seas Pooja 🥰

    1. Thank you so much ☺️

  25. Sorry your favorite month kicked you while you were down, Pooja. Sending hugs 💞

    1. Thank you, hopefully it’ll get better ❤️‍🩹

  26. Mr. Ohh's Sideways View Avatar
    Mr. Ohh’s Sideways View

    Sending positive Mojo your way. I hope the last week is better. 🤣😎🙃

    1. Thank you, appreciate it ☺️

  27. Glad you have good people around you, sending love to you. I emailed you….🧡

    1. Very grateful for them. Thank you, will check and respond 💗

  28. Oh, Pooja, I know you love October, and I feel sad it’s been a bad time for you. C’mon, just kick all bad stuff in the arse. Sending positive vibes you way. Hugs.

    1. Thank you so much, really appreciate it. Hugs 💗

  29. A & J PEI Treasures/E Jean Simpson, BEd, BA, MA Avatar
    A & J PEI Treasures/E Jean Simpson, BEd, BA, MA

    Sorry it’s been a rough month for you.

    1. Thanks so much.

  30. Ha, I felt horrible sharing some honesty yesterday or this past week as to how I felt about two of my friends and their latest transgressions. I normally don’t do that but as soon as I shared I realized a few things that helped me move forward. At least in my dreams that night, it did. Wishing you better times. Sometimes awareness of a problem is part of solving something.

    1. Oh no, sorry to hear that but honestly sometimes we grow out of friends and that’s okay.

      1. Well, I just realized I don’t need all the nonsense so next time we meet and we arranged to meet over Thanksgiving. I am going to say ‘separate bills’ instead of going through my turn, your turn, and usually she will say, “I forget, whose turn?’

        1. Honestly, that’s fair.

  31. I just wish to take a long sleep, and wake up on the new year directly. Since last 2-3 years october and November are unfriendly months for me (I can write a whole novel on it lol…).I fear same bad things may again.
    So far things are under control. I hope I don’t do something in upcoming days which I will regret later.

    I genuinely wish that good things happen to you, Pooja. At least you take control of the things happening to you or nearby you.
    The choice of your words and their intensity tell how much you are suffering at this moment.

    Take care… and I am here. You are not alone.
    Yes! Take your time and space to calm down yourself. Being left alone is the best thing happening to you sometimes. PEACE 💙☘️☘️

    1. I know, I want to do that too. I’m so done with this year. I’m so sorry you’ve had a tough time too, I hope things get better for you.

      Thank you so much, really appreciate it! 💗

  32. I feel you, my friend. 🫂We got this! I’m praying for you! 🙏🏽

    1. Thanks so much, really appreciate it. Praying for you as well 🙏

  33. Luckily, by definition “worst” should be followed by “better.”

    1. Fingers crossed that will be the case…

  34. oh dear… I have a dear friend who experienced a crazy October for a few years in a row, and she officially called it @#$@tober. It was out little joke for a while. She still dreads every October.
    I hope the last week shifts into high gear and November starts much better.

    1. It’s been a @#$@tober for me too lol so I understand how she feels. I hope it doesn’t become a yearly trend though. Thank you so much.

      1. You’re welcome, Pooja. I am looking forward to an update on your manuscript.

        1. First draft is done 😊 Thank you so much for asking.

  35. So sorry you’ve had such difficulties, Pooja. I hope November is kinder to you!

    1. Thank you, fingers crossed November will let me take a breath in peace lol!

  36. Not taking supplements when you need them might look like it’s not a big deal, but then it really does come back to bite you in the a**. And as for books, I feel you. I’m in a reading slump now because of this. Let’s hope that with the calendar changing to November, it gets better.

    1. So true, deficiencies are truly no joke. Urgh reading slumps are the worst but yes hopefully we’ll get our groove back in November.

      1. I used to think they were a joke, and what an expensive lesson that was!
        We’re putting a lot of hope in November, it better be good! 😅

        1. Lol it better be or I’m going to hibernate till 2027 😭

          1. It’s not even a joke 😭😭

            1. It’s genuinely not, I’m so done with this year 😣

              1. 😭😭

  37. Virtual hugs and I hope Halloween will still be fun and you’ll have a much better November,

    1. Thanks so much, fingers crossed.

  38. I hope things get better. I had a minor car accident in Oct so I know how you feel.

    1. Oh no, that’s terrible- hope you’re okay.

      1. Thanks. Yes I am fine! It was what we call a fender bender. Hurt the fender not me.

        1. Okay good, glad it wasn’t anything major!

  39. chanél desirée Avatar
    chanél desirée

    October should be a fun and spooky month, but it hasn’t quite felt like it. It’s been soooo serious. Why so serious, October? I’m sorry that your month hasn’t been going well. I hope things get better for you. Take care of yourself. <3

    1. EXACTLY! Usually I read spooky books and watch my favourite Halloween movies but this October has been so serious it’s not even felt like October. Thank you so much.

  40. Sorry to hear you’ve had such a bad experience. Better times ahead 🙂

    1. Thank you so much 🙂

  41. Wishing better times for you in November.

    1. Thank you, much appreciated.

  42. Here’s to a nicer November, Pooja, and a 2027 full of great reads! <3

    1. Thank you so much! 😊

  43. Sorry to hear that, Pooja. November is around the corner, and hopefully things will get better. 🙏🏼

    1. Thanks, fingers crossed it’ll be a better month 🙏

      1. You’re welcome, and yes! 🙏🏼

  44. Pooja…sending love and hugs. I’m always a fan of getting it out…however we can…so cheers to you for letting your feelings about October be known. As Edward said…in just a few days and we’ll greet November with the hopes that better days will follow! xo! 💝

    1. Thank you, yes letting it all out definitely helps! ❤️

      1. Definitely! 😉

  45. Didn’t seem right to like this post. I’m not “liking” the bad news. LOL. Hope November will be better for you!

    1. Lol that’s fair. Thanks so much, fingers crossed!

      1. LOL. I did like it, but I was liking the post, not the news you were reporting! This month is almost over!

  46. Oh, no, my dear girl. I’m so sorry. May every day be increasingly better. Love to you.

    1. Thank you so much, really appreciate it.

  47. I wouldn’t turn the evil eye on you and would send you a four-leafed clover, if I had one. I’m sorry you’ve had a truly bad with only a week for it to get better. Or else, well, November. I am thankful, too, for the good people in your life so that (frankly) you don’t go alone all the time.

    1. Aw thank you, really appreciate it. Hopefully, November will be a little better.

  48. So sorry to hear Pooj. Life does sometimes throw us curves balls. Remember that you have probably made it through worse. If not, you got this. Prayers for better days.

    1. Thank you so much, honestly this will pass too.

  49. Alex Diaz-Granados Avatar
    Alex Diaz-Granados

    Stay strong, Pooj!

  50. Sending you my warmest wishes, Pooja. I’m sorry things have been difficult, and I hope November turns out to be much kinder to you.

    1. Thank you so much, really appreciate it.

  51. Oh POOJA! Life has its things. I thought about you and put you on my to do list. I hope you are well. I am back posting as consitently as I can and you were one of the people I thought of. I will pray for you. You have been on my mind this whole month. We do love and care about you and when you are sad the universe triggers us all to pay attention. I have had the worst past 3 years and I really am wanting to make my blog at least earn me meals, just anything! I am trying to figure this out and I am broke! I found a way to get internet to post daily and the streak feature is movitating. I post on YouTube posts as well. If anyone reading this comment can help, how do I get back to interacting with blogs easily on wordpress ? I had to search for pooja!

    1. I am so sorry you’ve had a difficult time too, that sounds awful! I wish the best with your future and hope that your financial situation gets better. Everything is so expensive these days, it’s awful. Focus on the prompts on WP as those will help you find new people and for new people to find your blog.

  52. Ugh, don’t you just hate when life shows up to remind you it can crotch-kick you whenever it wants? Sorry it was such a crap month for you, but the good news its over. 🙂 Hope November is better, and don’t forget those vitamins, lady!

    1. Fingers crossed November will be better and I literally have alarms on my phone for the supplements now lol!

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