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It Was All For You

Trigger Warning: “It Was All For You” is a darker poem and if that’s unsettling for you please don’t read further. 

It Was All For You
Source: https://www.istockphoto.com/photo/holding-up-heart-gm855891632-140924129

I fell to the ground

Shattering myself into a million pieces

Just so you would notice me

I cut my arms and legs

Bleeding out

Just so you would notice me

I ripped out my hair

And picked at my skin

Just so you would notice me

And plucked out my eyes

Laying them at your feet

Just so you would notice me

I ripped out my heart from my chest

Offering it to you

And yet it was never enough

For you

About “It Was All For You”:

I’ve been watching You and that is sort of what inspired this poem. For those of you that are familiar with the show, you know that the protagonist is an awful person but in his mind he’s the “good guy.” In his mind, he does everything because of love and yet no one is thankful or appreciative of it. And I wanted to write this poem from his POV, showing how he believes he did everything for the people he loved and yet was never appreciated. This is how narcissists and psychopaths think, they’re always the victim, they’re always the ones going above and beyond for others.

Anyway, hope you enjoyed the poem. Do you watch You? Have you finished the last season? What did you think of the poem? Let me know in the comments below because I would love to hear from you. Or simply stop by and say hi!

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77 responses to “It Was All For You”

  1. wrookieschu Avatar
    wrookieschu

    Strong poem Pooja and I’m sure very relatable for many.

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you so much.

      Reply
  2. Christopher Hall Avatar
    Christopher Hall

    This was sooooo good! It’s one of my personal favorites from you no doubt! I loved how dark this was! 😍👍

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    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you, so glad you enjoyed it!

      Reply
      1. Christopher Hall Avatar
        Christopher Hall

        You’re very welcome as always of course! 😁💕

        Reply
  3. trE Avatar
    trE

    I do not watch You and now, I know I will not watch it.

    The poem is thought-provoking and heavy. It really made me feel what was being said.

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you so much. Yeah, if you don’t like protagonists that are bad people I would definitely avoid this show.

      Reply
      1. trE Avatar
        trE

        Yup. I don’t feel like getting angry anytime soon. LOL. And you’re welcome!

        Reply
  4. Milena Alien Avatar
    Milena Alien

    I think it’s a beautiful poem, a deep realization and a confession that you really want to please, repeating “it’s all for you” it’s like seeing your value in the ability to do so. I can relate to this, I also want to give up this habit, it doesn’t serve me. You can’t please everyone, so do something to please yourself, write something for your Self. Cook something for yourself, go for a walk with your precious self, because you deserve it.

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    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you so much. Glad you enjoyed the poem. True, it’s impossible to please everyone, it’s better to put your own happiness first.

      Reply
  5. Janice Reid Avatar
    Janice Reid

    Powerful!!! You captured our attention for sure!

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you so much!

      Reply
  6. chameleon Avatar
    chameleon

    “The Art of Subtlety: A Memoir (by Someone Who’s Never Heard of It)”

    Wow. That’s one way to send a message. Most people just ghost or write vague social media posts, but you? You went full performance art with a side of self-sacrifice, like a Shakespearean character who accidentally stumbled into a My Chemical Romance album.

    The effort is undeniable. The symbolism? Chef’s kiss. Hair, skin, organs—who needs a bouquet when you can present your circulatory system like a contestant on The Bachelor: Gothic Edition?

    But here’s the twist: maybe, just maybe, the person you’re trying to impress doesn’t deserve the opera of your pain. Maybe the real plot twist isn’t “Why won’t they notice me?” but “Why am I auditioning for someone who doesn’t even have a ticket to the show?”

    Still, points for drama. The theatre kids are weeping. The poets are taking notes. The medics… are deeply concerned.

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    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you so much. I’m so glad you enjoyed the poem. Haha yeah it had my inner emo coming out for sure. With the poem, I also wanted to show how one persons perspective doesn’t tell the real story which is a vital part of the show that inspired this poem. We hear someone talk about all the things they’ve done for others but how much of that is actually true.

      Reply
  7. chameleon Avatar
    chameleon

    Honestly? This piece is raw, haunting, and emotionally intense. It’s a visceral portrayal of pain and longing—an almost mythic expression of self-destruction in the name of love or recognition. The repetition drives home the desperation, and the imagery is deliberately graphic, evoking both sympathy and discomfort. That’s powerful writing.

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    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you again. I’m so glad you thought so.

      Reply
  8. Goin' the extra...aaamile Avatar
    Goin’ the extra…aaamile

    The series ‘YOU’ has to be one among those damaging stories on Netflix. I watched one series n i was done.

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Yeah, it’s pretty dark and based on a book series.

      Reply
  9. Carolyn Page Avatar
    Carolyn Page

    They are always the victim – absolutely!
    In their deluded mind state there can only be ‘one’. Of this they are, for the most part, unaware; believing, as you’ve said, that they are doing all for others – well, most of the time. At other times they are revengeful, hurtful monsters bent on hurting others. What a crazy personality!
    No I haven’t watched ‘You’; though I do think you’ve done a marvellous job typifying the narcissist.

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    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Yes, exactly! They’re always the victims, they’re always the ones that are apparently doing so much for others even though they claim no one does anything for them. It’s so confusing being around them because narcissists are extremely unstable and unable to process emotions properly. You basically end up walking on eggshells because you don’t know which version you’ll get.
      Thank you so much.

      Reply
  10. Loku Avatar
    Loku

    I didn’t watch it.

    It seems the warning was for me. I appreciate that!

    I read the poem. You are able to effectively express it.

    I would avoid getting much into details.

    Have a nice day!

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    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you. I’m glad to hear that and have a nice day too!

      Reply
      1. Loku Avatar
        Loku

        Pooja! Why we’re not writing humour based posts? Like all serious stuff these days.

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        1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
          P. J. Gudka

          I’m not sure, maybe it’s just with everything going on in the world and our lives humour has taken a backseat.

          Reply
  11. thomasstigwikman Avatar
    thomasstigwikman

    Yes, I think narcissism is a type of delusion. They think they are sacrificing themselves. They are the good ones, the smart ones, the geniuses and others are not grateful like they should be and are not fair to them. Interesting thoughts.

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    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Yeah, I think it’s like a mix of delusion and psychopathy. It’s fascinating to read about but not so fun to deal with it.

      Reply
  12. Heartland Echoes Avatar
    Heartland Echoes

    I haven’t seen the movie “You.”

    However, I can strongly resonate with your poem. Very deep and very well written.

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you so much, glad the poem resonated.

      Reply
  13. shivatje Avatar
    shivatje

    Nice 🙏🌹🕉

    Aum Shanti

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      🙏🙏

      Reply
  14. Michael Sammut Avatar
    Michael Sammut

    A dark but intriguing poem that reflects the reality of narcissist people. Well done, Pooja.

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you so much.

      Reply
      1. Michael Sammut Avatar
        Michael Sammut

        You’re welcome and Happy weekend.

        Reply
        1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
          P. J. Gudka

          Happy weekend.

          Reply
  15. Darryl B Avatar
    Darryl B

    Wow, Pooja… powerful and gritty. Great post 😎👏

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    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you so much 😊

      Reply
  16. katiemiafrederick Avatar
    katiemiafrederick

    “Why Do i Love This Terrible Man”

    Indeed the Human Condition Once
    Again ‘Carl Sagan and Contact’ Inspired
    Is Capable of the Most Beautiful Dreams Brought

    to Fruition
    in the Stories
    of Culture

    Both
    Smaller
    And Larger We Co-Create

    And Of Course Nightmares
    Come to Fruition in Both Solo

    And Group Think too Far Beyond

    Words First Controlled By Emotions

    Perhaps Hidden Yet Still Breathing Deep Within

    Where i Am From There
    is the Term ‘Little Man
    Syndrome’ Yes Similar
    to ‘Napoleon’ and the
    ‘Trump Meme’ too When

    Little Donnie Never Quite
    Measures Up to His Daddy
    Named Fred Sort of Like the

    Dude Across the Street A Loyal
    Church Go’er Yet Screaming at His
    Son Through the Years Not Much Different

    Than Kicking
    A Stray Dog
    Still Looking
    For Love in All
    The Wrong Places

    Yet the Gift That Keeps
    On Giving Nightmares in
    Fruition For Free ACross Life’s Span

    Until It’s PArt of the Vicious Cycle of the Condition Again
    It’s True A Military Parade on the Birthday of One like this

    Would Still
    Never Be
    Enough
    To Fill
    And Feel
    The Void Within
    With No Reference Point Out

    True a Condition Wonderful to Keep
    And Terror Beyond Terror to Even Escape

    Other than that Kudo’s to Wiki Cliff Notes
    For Getting me Up to Speed With the Vibe

    of the
    Series

    About ‘You’

    This TheMe

    Indeed the
    Condition of
    This Human MeMe
    Breathes Barely on For Free..:)

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    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      So true, I think it happens when people feel like they can’t please their parents. Or they’re just miserable people and feel the need to make everyone else that way too.

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      1. katiemiafrederick Avatar
        katiemiafrederick

        Hehe Dear Pooja it Wasn’t
        Always Easy Yet Really
        So Fortunate my
        Father Ran Away
        At 3 Leaving
        me Out
        Of That
        Side of The
        Family Trapped

        In “Trump World”
        Well Before He
        Came on The
        Scene To

        Continue
        That “Revelation”
        Of Human Archetype

        Of
        Cold
        HuMaNMeMe🙌

        Reply
  17. destiny Avatar
    destiny

    well captured, Pooja … thought provoking yet still as true as “they’re always the victim..”
    🤍

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    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you so much, glad you enjoyed it 💗

      Reply
      1. destiny Avatar
        destiny

        my pleasure 🤍

        Reply
  18. Narisa Wahlang Avatar
    Narisa Wahlang

    I loved this. ✨
    I can totally see Joe writing this poem. It is very him.

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you, haha yeah I had to channel my inner Joe 😅

      Reply
  19. Opher Avatar
    Opher

    A darker one!!

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you!

      Reply
  20. The Introverted Bookworm Avatar
    The Introverted Bookworm

    Wow, what a powerful poem! It really speaks to the reader; the words leap off the page. Amazing! 😊💜

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you so much! So glad you liked the poem 😊💗

      Reply
  21. Eugi Avatar
    Eugi

    Whoa! Pooja, this is a mind-stirring and brilliantly written dark poem. Well done! 🖤

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you so much! 😊

      Reply
      1. Eugi Avatar
        Eugi

        You’re welcome, Pooja.

        Reply
  22. msafriyie Avatar
    msafriyie

    You. I just started watching yesterday. Only done with season 1, episode 1. I slept while watching episode 2. Now I want to hurry and watch it. Must be interesting considering that your interesting poem was inspired by that.

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      It’s so good, I think the first season was the best one. You’ll love it if you like dark shows.

      Reply
      1. msafriyie Avatar
        msafriyie

        I’m definitely making time to continue

        Reply
  23. byngnigel Avatar
    byngnigel

    I have not watched YOU… but you have never led me wrong with a recommendation. I enjoyed this poem, as I do enjoy the dark stuff.
    Gonna add YOU to my watch list.

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thanks so much. If you enjoy darker shows you will absolutely love this one, especially the first two seasons.

      Reply
      1. byngnigel Avatar
        byngnigel

        I’ve added it.

        Reply
  24. Lauren Scott, Author Avatar
    Lauren Scott, Author

    I haven’t watched that show, Pooja, but your poem is definitely dark but powerful, and I’m sure many would find it relatable. ❤️

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you so much. Have a lovely weekend ❤️

      Reply
  25. Elsie LMC Avatar
    Elsie LMC

    I started watching You a few years ago but then I got distracted. It’s so cool it inspired you to write this poem! I love it when you find inspiration where you least expect it 😊✨️

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you, haha so true sometimes we get inspired by random stuff! You is great but I totally get that, when shows take a break we get distracted and forget about them. I only started watching it again and catching up last year 💗

      Reply
  26. ianscyberspace Avatar
    ianscyberspace

    Yep that’s dark enough to challenge the imagination.

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thanks so much, sometimes I like to try that.

      Reply
  27. Dawn Avatar
    Dawn

    I have not seen the show, but wow, the power in this poem! How many times do we destroy ourselves just to become what we think someone else wants?

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you! Absolutely, we do everything for someone else including changing ourselves but it’s never enough. We can’t possibly please everyone. That’s why it’s so important to live for ourselves.

      Reply
  28. Mr. Ohh's Sideways View Avatar
    Mr. Ohh’s Sideways View

    Nice poem. This is one for your next book “Dark Dreams” Also I’m a firm believer in shattering yourself into a million pieces. It’s the only way to bild yourself into what you want, and need to be. 🤣😎🙃

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thanks so much. Ooh maybe so, that would be a great name for a poetry collection. That makes a lot of sense, sometimes we have to break to build ourselves back up 😊

      Reply
  29. Belladonna Avatar
    Belladonna

    This is a beautiful poem Pooja!

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thank you, glad you enjoyed it!

      Reply
      1. Belladonna Avatar
        Belladonna

        You’re welcome!

        Reply
  30. clcouch123 Avatar
    clcouch123

    It’s a good, troubling poem, which I think means it is also successful. I’m not familiar with YOU except as you’ve described the program. I am reminded, though, of recent movies that I’ve seen depicting deceptive, narcissistic men who believe they deserve sympathy as they deserve followers. Creepy, revealing, needful work by all of you creators.

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    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thanks so much. Yes, I think narcissism is a lot more popular these days i.e talked about more online and in movies/shows/books. I think the main way to spot a narcissist is when they’re always a victim in their stories.

      Reply
  31. Sadje Avatar
    Sadje

    A very strongly worded poem.

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      Thanks, it came out much darker than I expected.

      Reply
      1. Sadje Avatar
        Sadje

        Sometimes the writing takes a direction of its own.

        Reply
  32. An Ordinary Girl Avatar
    An Ordinary Girl

    This is exactly what’s happening with me right now.

    Reply
    1. P. J. Gudka Avatar
      P. J. Gudka

      I’m so sorry to hear that, stay strong and protect yourself.

      Reply

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