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I Almost Believed Your Lies

I Was Poisoned By My Neighbours

Like snake you slither

Into my life

And you smile so genuinely

I almost believe the lies

That fall freely from your lips

Your act of innocence is so convincing

That I am almost fooled

Into believing that you care

But when I look into your eyes

I see the real you

That wants to steal my soul

To display on your mantle

Just another one of your trophies

Just another one of your victims

I most definitely will not be

“I Almost Believed Your Lies” was inspired by life I guess. We all have some experiences with narcissists and narcissism. At least that’s what I believe. It’s just that some of us are aware of it and some aren’t. And some of us are unlucky enough to become longterm victims of narcissists while others are lucky enough to only be side characters in their plots.

“I Almost Believed Your Lies” is about narcissism and the way in which narcissists act. They will tell you a million sweet lies just to get you to do what they want. And I have had the displeasure of experiencing people like that. And I’ve also fallen prey to them sometimes. But over time you learn. You learn to really see people for who they are and not fall for the ones that are only trying to use you.

Have you ever had any experiences with a narcissist or narcissism? If so, what was it like? Were you able to escape them? Let me know in the comments below or simply stop by and say hi!

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99 responses to “I Almost Believed Your Lies”

  1. John Avatar
    John

    A very toxic relationship and another good reason to live single, Pooja. ☺️

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yup, single life is the way to go lol 💖

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      1. #tamakastudio Avatar
        #tamakastudio

        many singles here. wlcm. life is peace being single

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        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          True, it’s easier being single.

          Reply
    2. #tamakastudio Avatar
      #tamakastudio

      v v direct

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  2. Hilary Tan Avatar
    Hilary Tan

    I often wonder if narcissists are aware that they have victims because they are too full of themselves to notice 🤔 I feel like everyone has a narcissist or two that make their lives hell, and for some reason, it’s always hard to fully detach from them. Idk why this is the case. Maybe the narcissist is family. Maybe they’re ex’s. Maybe they were fair-weather friends who treated us so badly that we have open wounds. Maybe they’re a spouse. Well written poem as always.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I think a lot of narcissists actually believe that they are the victims and that the people around them are the toxic ones. They always pick people they know will end up depending on them which may be why it’s hard to detach from them. We definitely all experience them at some point or the other. Thanks!

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  3. trE Avatar
    trE

    Yaaasss! The ending line!!!

    “I see the real you

    That wants to steal my soul

    To display on your mantle

    Just another one of your trophies

    Just another one of your victims

    I most definitely will not be”

    I love this, Pooja!

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much!!

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      1. trE Avatar
        trE

        You’re most welcome!

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  4. Lebogang Shazzygal Malatji Avatar
    Lebogang Shazzygal Malatji

    Funny how just yesterday my Lil sister asked me what a narcissist is. I tried my level best to explain to her and she was shocked that such people do exist. I’m glad we had that conversation so that she can be aware of such types.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yeah, it’s good to be aware so that she can be careful in the future. It’s definitely shocking and sad that people like this exist but they do so we have to be careful.

      Reply
  5. Sara Flower Kjeldsen Avatar
    Sara Flower Kjeldsen

    I can relate to this too well. Why do they seem so sincere in the beginning? But at least you start seeing through lies faster after some experience.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      They always seem the sweetest until they show their true colours. Yeah, you learn over time with experience.

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  6. Taylorッ Avatar
    Taylorッ

    The best thing to do in a relationship like that is to leave. Personally I stayed with a narcissistic person for far too long hoping they’d change. They hid their tendencies in the beginning then over time it became draining, in the end I left but it was hard.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I absolutely agree. There is no changing a narcissist. It’s best to just move on.

      Reply
  7. Shaunelius Sterns Avatar
    Shaunelius Sterns

    It is as if you are living in hell everyday, but on a good day things are the way they are.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yes, that’s exactly what it’s like.

      Reply
  8. mind free Avatar
    mind free

    Self love helps you to overcome this! When it’s comes to relationship actions are more important than sweet words!Love this post💜✨

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yes, it’s best to stay strong and listen to your gut. Thanks! 😊

      Reply
    2. #tamakastudio Avatar
      #tamakastudio

      couldn’t stress this too much. the lack of self love and care too much for other people often make us not realized that we are just victimized

      Reply
      1. mind free Avatar
        mind free

        That’s absolutely true! We can care for someone who value us but not someone who is not worthy of our love. Better we can show that love and care for ourselves 🤍

        Reply
  9. Wes Avatar
    Wes

    This is good work. I write verse as well. Depeche Mode has a song called “Lie to me” that I think will help you with these emotions associated with betrayal.
    Most people aren’t genuine. My journey through anxiety taught me that the only path to healing is being genuine. I think once we have been burned a few times it is easy to become jaded, but I still think there are good people in the world, just few and far between.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I’ll definitely check out the song. Thanks so much.

      Yes, a lot of people don’t have the best intention for us. And humans can be very selfish in general.

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      1. Warrior Zen FM Avatar
        Warrior Zen FM

        It can be difficult to trust some but I take the Ernest Hemingway approach “The only way you can tell if you can trust someone is to trust them”. I always look for the good in people and give the benefit of the doubt, but once I am betrayed it is game over for them.

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        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          Yeah, I think that’s the good way to look at it. If someone betrays your trust you can learn and no longer trust them.

          Reply
  10. Rita Avatar
    Rita

    My ex was a total narcissist. I am so far from him now; older and wiser.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I’m sorry to hear that but really glad you got away from him.

      Reply
  11. Marsha Avatar
    Marsha

    My dad. People who have had experience with them benefit from counseling.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Sorry about that. I agree, I’m currently in therapy for that amongst other things and it’s very helpful.

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      1. Marsha Avatar
        Marsha

        I’m glad. It helped me. I’ve been on several occasions.

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        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          Glad it helped you as well.

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          1. Marsha Avatar
            Marsha

            It’s good to get an objective opinion outside of yourself. One of my counselors had me do a lot of reading about narcisissm and children of narcissistic parents and how they cope. I imagine it would be similar to spouses or significant others.

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            1. Pooja G Avatar
              Pooja G

              Yes, it really helps a lot to get an objective opinion from a professional. It really helps see things differently.

              Reply
  12. ianscyberspace Avatar
    ianscyberspace

    Unfortunately my daughter discovered the pitfalls of narcissist relationships and is struggling to trust now. Very well written.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      That’s awful but I understand how she feels. It makes you paranoid and it becomes difficult to trust others.

      Reply
  13. Vidah Avatar
    Vidah

    I’ve never experienced anything like that but I always try to stay cautious while choosing people in my life.
    I hope none of us have to face this.
    Btw, great lines! 🙂

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yes, always be careful. Thanks!

      Reply
  14. O.D. Avatar
    O.D.

    I had a friend who was a narcissist; we had been buddies for 15+ years until I started doing work on myself; trying to be a better me. He didn’t like that, because it meant I wasn’t tolerating what I initially thought was banter (it wasn’t)

    Don’t even get me started on family lol grew up with a narc father, his last words to me before leaving the house were “let’s see where that gets you” lol funny now but really heart breaking then.

    I like what you said in your post, there those who are fully aware of narcissism existing and those who are blind to it. People who have been subject to it see it so clearly and in many ways feel like they can never tire when its time to talk about it (I mean look at how long this comment is)

    There’s a kind of vindication in me anytime I meet a fellow narc survivor. We understand there are truly horrible people out there and we would never want anyone to fall under their fake charm.

    Poems like this bring more awareness ✨ thanks for sharing

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yeah I’ve had some friends that were narcissists and they only want to be friends till they can use you. Once they see you set boundaries they’re done.

      It’s true, it’s one of those things that once you realise you can’t unsee it. You keep seeing how many narcissists are there and how much damage they do.

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  15. Destiny Avatar
    Destiny

    A great poem Pooja… Glad to have never been a victim of this but I’ve witnessed it amongst colleagues and it is simply “ugly”

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much. Glad you’ve never personally been a victim.

      Reply
  16. Cindy Georgakas Avatar
    Cindy Georgakas

    Great poem Pooja and love this:

    ” And some of us are unlucky enough to become longterm victims of narcissists while others are lucky enough to only be side characters in their plots.”

    Getting out as soon as you recognize it is key. Sadly, not everyone is aware! 🙇‍♀️

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much. Yes, absolutely always leave when you can.

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      1. Cindy Georgakas Avatar
        Cindy Georgakas

        totally true Pooja! ❣️

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  17. Chris Adedoyin Avatar
    Chris Adedoyin

    Beautiful poem! I like your choice of words. I agreed with what Cindy wrote, the best thing to do in such a toxic relationship is to leave 🙂

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much! Totally agree, it’s best to leave 🙂

      Reply
  18. theglossytulips Avatar
    theglossytulips

    Looks like a poem on a narcissist. Very well written. 👍👍

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much.

      Reply
  19. Jay B Hughes Avatar
    Jay B Hughes

    This would be a great one to hear you read aloud. Time for another short podcast!?

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much, good idea!

      Reply
  20. Happy Panda Avatar
    Happy Panda

    I wish this wasn’t relatable. 🙁 🙁
    I was deeply in love with a narcissist for a few years and it left me so bruised that even years later I’m still terrified of love.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I’m sorry to hear that. Narcissists really leave you scarred. Glad you at least got out of the relationship 💖

      Reply
  21. DEVANG UPADHYAYA Avatar
    DEVANG UPADHYAYA

    Beautiful Poem PG!!
    Keep sharing, you write beautifully.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much!

      Reply
  22. reeydah Avatar
    reeydah

    Hmm, I wonder if narcissists know they’re narcissists. If so, do they try to change, or they try to justify it? Can they change? Your poem really got me thinking.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I think they don’t even really realise they’re the problem. I think they believe they’re the victims. According to science they can’t really change.

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      1. reeydah Avatar
        reeydah

        Wow – I think that’s quite sad. But I guess we can’t really do anything about that except avoid them

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        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          Yeah that’s all we can really do.

          Reply
  23. The Green Crunchy Mother Avatar
    The Green Crunchy Mother

    That was a great poem, and very powerful. I have had plenty of experiences with narcissists, unfortunately. But today, I am able to identify them much quicker, and set my boundaries and limits with these type of people.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much. I’m sorry to hear that but glad you learnt how to deal with them.

      Reply
  24. Nicole Smith Avatar
    Nicole Smith

    My step dad and my sisters new boyfriend. It’s driving me mad that my sister is repeating the pattern

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      That’s so sad. But that seems to happen a lot. I think narcissists purposely pick people who have parents that are narcissists too because they can sometimes be easier to manipulate.

      Reply
  25. britcanwrites Avatar
    britcanwrites

    Narcissists never accept their part in anything, the other person is always to blame. It’s easy to say leave a relationship, but what about when these people are ‘quote-on-quote’ friends, or family members? Nightmare.🥴

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Absolutely, it’s always someone else’s fault. Yeah it’s much harder to cut them out than we think. Sometimes it’s even impossible when they’re parents.

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      1. britcanwrites Avatar
        britcanwrites

        Yes! It’s horrible for adult children when they have to deal with narcissistic parents, and then when you put grandkids in the mix. 🤦‍♀️ You covered a good topic here. 👍

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        1. Pooja G Avatar
          Pooja G

          Yes, it turns into a crazy situation and it’s always the innocent kids/grandkids that suffer. Thanks so much.

          Reply
  26. donnajburkholder Avatar
    donnajburkholder

    You describe narcissism well. Very seductive and manipulative. As a psychotherapist I will share that someone with narcissism is very difficult to treat because their egos are very fragile and they have a large amount of fear regarding gaining insight. Honestly, they don’t usually seek therapy on their own, usually a loved-one is pushing them to go. When I had to work with some, I would try to remember that they most likely didn’t form narcissistic traits from a fabulous upbringing, rather there were probably painful experiences that didn’t allow them to be themselves or to know who they are and now they’re constantly looking for outward approval and really afraid to look inward. That helped me to have more compassion but it still was really hard to work with them.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks. I’ve heard that as well. Actually from another therapist who said it was almost impossible for narcissists to change their behaviour. It’s quite sad really especially when you think of their narcissism as being a product of trauma.

      Reply
  27. Pennize Pics Avatar
    Pennize Pics

    Very intense and good poem, and you hit the nail on the head. I personally have not been taken by a narcissist but I know someone else who has. It is sad that some people are that way and know how to draw in their victims. I am sorry that you have endured the pain of a snake like that but for the short time of knowing you on here, you seem to have a good handle on life now.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much. Glad you haven’t been a victim of a narcissist.

      Reply
  28. Reaseaorg Avatar
    Reaseaorg

    Yes I have. I would say frequently. I am often their “victim”. That person they select because I am an introvert. I know my own mind well, but care for others more. And therefore am easy for others to perceive they can step over and exploit. This isn’t the case so allows me to see their true self. I think then you have the time to explore what is possible within and outside the boundaries, and make decisions accordingly … Thought provoking article. Thanks

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Sorry to hear that. Sometimes when you’re a very caring person narcissists can sense it and take advantage. Thanks so much.

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      1. Reaseaorg Avatar
        Reaseaorg

        Very welcome and agreed 🙂

        Reply
  29. Doug Avatar
    Doug

    Well done. Nice sounds and flow. Slithering lips in the Garden of Eden he thinks he rules. The evil eyes above the smile warn of a deadly strike that poisons the soul. Too few reflecting ponds for a narcissist to notice ripples in the wake of destruction.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much. Loved your description, very accurate when describing a narcissist.

      Reply
  30. The Unnerved Traveler Avatar
    The Unnerved Traveler

    Was married to one, and let’s just say it’s a blessing that I have my sanity. He sought to destroy me completely when I was finally brave enough to leave.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Wow, that’s awful but I am so glad you were able to leave.

      Reply
      1. The Unnerved Traveler Avatar
        The Unnerved Traveler

        So am I!

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  31. Feets Avatar
    Feets

    Are we talking about abusive people or people with Cluster B Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD)? I think everyone has traits that make them inconsiderate, self centered, think they’re better than everyone, but others are extreme and can become it to the extent that it affects their lives, but that doesn’t mean they’re evil.

    Cluster B personalities are all very dysfunctional to the point most people consider them evil and abusive or murders which causes further stigma (and gets to some of their heads to want to be an annoying deviant because that’s what people want and they want attention).

    Being a selfish prick is waaaay different from those disorders, you really wonder what’s going their head and why they want you.

    For example, I was friends with people who texted me on their time and even when I’d get upset, they’d gaslight me to tell me that I was being weak and it was my fault I expected to text on my time but got unnecessarily defensive and pissed when I went on my own time. I’ve seen people collect friends and since I am quick at texting and typing, it’s easy for people to cling onto me so they can feel people care for them. It’s hard to make friends because it’s majority of the population. I doubt these people were narcissists even though they had attention seeking traits—they’re probably just burnt out, irritable, selfish, and depressed. Depression does that to you and makes tons of people extremely abusive emotionally and psychologically.

    Anyway, there are actual narcissists, I wouldn’t be surprised if you met one, I just hope that you were mentally ok afterwards and got therapy because that has to be terrible.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      That’s sad, gaslighting is pretty common though. And I’ve definitely had friends like that. Luckily I don’t really talk to any of them anymore.
      Yes, depression does do that. It makes you selfish in certain ways.
      Yeah, I’m talking about actual narcissists and the damage they can do. Thanks so much.

      Reply
  32. ofaworkingmom Avatar
    ofaworkingmom

    Your words in I Almost Believed Your Lies stirred up much anger in me–it is very, very relatable. One thing I firmly believe in, and have seen time and time again, is karma eventually makes its way to those who you are referencing.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yes, I believe that too. Karma reaches them eventually.

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  33. WellsFiction Avatar
    WellsFiction

    My dad is a alcoholic narcissist. I’m not sure if I would define my brother as a complete narcissist, yet he has those moments. It’s difficult, yet I realize others actions are not my fault nor should I try to ever change them, because we can only truly change ourselves if we desire too. Happy new year, girl. so thankful to have friends like you in my life. Makes the days a little better 🙂

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I’m sorry, that’s difficult family situation to be a part of. Yes, of course it’s not your responsibility or fault how others behave.
      Thanks and happy to have a friend like you too 🙂

      Reply
  34. Third Culture Kid Avatar
    Third Culture Kid

    I’m glad my early exposure to narcissists primed me to spot them quickly and cut them out! I don’t have time for that anymore

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      I’m sorry you were exposed to them but very glad you learnt to deal with them.

      Reply
  35. LenoreDallas Avatar
    LenoreDallas

    No experience with a narcissist but I’ve seen the damage they can do!

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yes, they can cause so much damage!

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  36. surbhispen Avatar
    surbhispen

    wow it’s nice and great sound.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thanks so much.

      Reply
  37. Janice Reid Avatar
    Janice Reid

    The eyes never lie 🤣🤣.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Lol exactly 😅

      Reply
  38. Belladonna Avatar
    Belladonna

    This was beautiful and I agree with Tre, the last line was amazing!

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Thank you so much!

      Reply
  39. michael foglietta Avatar
    michael foglietta

    I have definitely experienced narcissism. One of the reasons why I’m not married anymore. It’s sad to say that I got suckered, buy I learned my lesson the hard way and I am much better off now.

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Sorry to hear that. To be honest, it’s really hard to know a narcissist from a regular person. Especially if it’s someone you really love. But glad you got out because that’s really the best way to deal with a narcissist.

      Reply
  40. selena official writing Avatar
    selena official writing

    I have been in complicated relationship, but don’t know what’s it like

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    1. Pooja G Avatar
      Pooja G

      Yeah, I think it’s much worse with narcissists.

      Reply

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