Blogger Interview With Yuvi

Blogger Interview With Yuvi
I had so much fun interviewing Yuvi, she is such a wonderful person and her blog is really great so please do take a minute to check it out- as always it will be linked below.
1. Thanks so much for being a part of this interview. Tell us a little bit about yourself and what your blog is about.
My name is Yuvi and I’m from south India. My blog is about all things art. You can find various doodle ideas and drawing techniques. Sometimes I write funny, relatable, daily-life satire too categorized as Art of Banter. You can find the banter posts here: https://artwarlock.com/category/art-of-banter/
2. When did you start your blog and what inspired you to start a blog?
I started as a hobby blogger three years ago but discontinued very soon. I tried writing poetry but it didn’t stick with me, maybe because that is not my passion. I started blogging again a few months back and changed my niche to art.
3. How has your blog evolved since you first created it?
When I started blogging, I didn’t know what I should share or write. I saw many bloggers sharing beautiful poetry and I’ve tried too. (Honestly, my old posts will be embarrassing!😁) But now after changing my niche to what I’m passionate about, I feel my blog has evolved to something out of the ’embarrassing’ range.
4. I noticed you write about a number of topics- do you have a favourite and if so which is your favourite to write about? 
 My favorite topic is all about art and drawings. I’m trying other topics too sometimes just to experiment which works best for me and my beautiful readers.
5. What are some of your long term blogging goals?
My long term blogging goals is to improve the quality of my drawings and inspire my readers to draw with me by sharing ideas and printables like this. https://artwarlock.com/2021/03/10/doodle-art-idea-with-free-printables/
6. How has blogging impacted you and your life?
I’m that girl who gets bored easily. So before starting my blogging journey, I’ve tried various hobbies but none of them stuck with me. But now since I blog about what I’m passionate about, I’m happy.
7. What is your favourite food?
My favorite food is spicy Indian foods. If it is spicy, I will love it!
8. What was your favourite candy growing up?
Growing up I’ve always loved those cotton candies at the local exhibitions and festivals.
9. What is your favourite movie?
My favorite genre is fantasy so my evergreen favorites will be Harry Potter, LOTR, Pirates of the Caribbean and alike.

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I’m a little busy at the moment and have quite a few interviews ready to post so please don’t worry if I don’t respond immediately. I will definitely respond as soon as possible.


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The One With All The Art

The One With All The Art

I don’t know if you guys remember this but last year when the pandemic first started I got super into doing online art for a while and it was incredibly relaxing. I had so much fun with it and I’m kind of sad I don’t have as much time for art now (although I do still occassionally do it from time to time). Anyway, I realised my art app was offering little videos now instead of just pictures and I wanted to share videos with you guys of how I made the art! Hope you enjoy them if they work on WP- I rarely share videos so this post may end up being a total disaster. Also if you could let me know in the comments if the videos work or not that would be awesome! And if you can’t tell by the title someone has started watching Friends again lol.

I’ve uploaded in the order that I drew them and you can probably tell I get better at using the app later on. My favourite out of all of them is Marge because I’m really proud of how her hair turned out since it was kind of hard to get it just right and shade it too. Let me know in the comments which one you liked best!


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I Won- Thank You!!

Omg you guys I actually won something that I REALLY wanted to win so badly!! A while ago I was reading Jirah Merizz’s blog and I noticed she had just hit 2k which is obviously amazing. Of course I wanted to congratulate her on the followers and then I realised she was also doing a giveaway.
In case you are not familiar with her or her blog- in which case I would recommend checking it out immediately by clicking here– she is an amazing artist and does graphic artwork. She has quite a few pre-made ones ones on sale that you can check out here. She also makes specific designs if you want something specific. I have been obsessed with her work for a while now and when I saw that one of the prizes was a custom digital illustration I knew that I had to apply.
Of course, I kind of forgot about it and did not expect to win just because I never really win stuff in general but I actually won! I was so excited when she informed me that I had won and I sent her an image that I wanted her to make for me. This is one of my favourite images from one of my favourite outings and I thought it would look really cool as graphic art:

And being the amazing person that she is not only did she make that one but she made in three different styles which is just so generous of her. As someone who is dipping their feet into digital art I can imagine just how much time this took and how hard it must be to make just one let alone three with different backgrounds.
I LOVE how they turned out and I honestly can’t pick a favourite because they’re all so cute!!



I want to thank Jirah once more from the bottom of my heart and I also really want to congratulate her again on the well deserved followers!
She is an absolutely amazing artist and if you or someone you know would be interested in graphic art I would highly recommend her. You can check out her Instagram for more of her designs by clicking here. You can check out her pre-made designs by clicking here. You can check out her blog by clicking here. You can also see her other amazing artwork on her blog by clicking here. I would love it if you guys would support her because she is an amazing artist and it’s always awesome when bloggers support each other!
Let me know which of the three images she made are your favourite or if you’re like me and like all three!


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Sunshine Blogger Award #26

Thank you!

I want to thank Forever Serene for nominating me for this award. She has an awesome blog with posts about life, narcissism, blogging, poetry and more. Be sure to check out her blog by clicking here. 

Rules

(1) Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link back to their blog.

(2) Answer the 11 questions asked by the person who nominated you.

(3) Nominate 11 people and ask them new 11 questions.

(4) Notify the nominees by commenting on one of their posts.

(5) List the rules and display the sunshine blogger award in your post.

Questions

What are you thankful for?

Just being alive and healthy right now. 

What are you scared of?

The dark, ghosts, holes, butterflies and anything paranormal really.

What are you passionate about?

Making lots of money- kidding! Writing is actually my number one passion right now.

How do you relax?

I love to meditate or do yoga. 

Is there anything you regret?

A lot of the things I did as a teenager. 

When did you last feel truly alive?

I actually have a funny story about that. Before I started to take CBD oil I knew I had anxiety and some other stuff going on but then I started taking CBD oil and I remember after about four days of taking it I laughed at something and I just remember thinking “I’m actually laughing” because I had not genuinely laughed at anything in years or felt that kind of happy in a long time. I truly felt alive in that moment. 

What is going right in your life?

This blog, learning German and doing art. 

What gives you a sense of satisfaction?

This blog.

How have you changed the past year?

I think more than anything this year taught me to cherish what I have, to do what I want while I still can and to appreciate my friends and family. 

Favorites books/movies/artists/songs/?

Favourite book- Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen

Favourite movie- Star Wars

Favourite artists- The Chicks, Lizzo, Megan Thee Stallion, Princess Nokia and SO MANY more!

Favourite song- Imagine by John Lennon or I’m Going To Say It Now by Phil Ochs.  

What is one of the most fascinating places you have visited?

Addis Ababa, Ethiopia. You can check out my posts about my experience there by clicking here. 

My Nominees

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Art And Anxiety #2

As you guys may know I have started doing some art again. I have talked about it in a couple of my other posts and I thought I would give you guys an update because I have been doing a lot more art these days and I also have kind of gotten the hang of how the apps work so I feel like my art work is definitely getting better!
Before I get into the art I want to talk a bit about anxiety because I realised I have not posted any mental health posts in like a while. I’m not sure why that is but this is my theory. You may know that for almost an year now- about 10 months I think- I have been taking CBD oil on a regular basis. I started out taking it every day and then every other day and now I take about three to four drops every two or three days depending on how I’m feeling. CBD oil has significantly reduced my anxiety as well as insomnia and I just don’t really experience most of the symptoms I got due to anxiety. So, I usually write about what I’m going through or things that I am experiencing and since anxiety is not a major part of my life anymore I feel like I kind of stopped writing about it just because I don’t think about it that much anymore. If you want to read more about my CBD oil journey please click here.
I have noticed that art has really been helping me with my anxiety and stress management as well. You probably don’t experience this if you don’t have anxiety but people with anxiety disorders have brains that never turn off. Basically, there is always that voice at the back of your head and it can be extremely exhausting. What I have noticed recently is that when I do art I concentrate on it so hard that the voice at the back of my brain shuts up which is such a relief even if it’s for a little while.
What I have been really enjoying more than colouring is doing my own art from scratch. As much as I love art I’m really not very good at it so I decided to draw something that was not too difficult and complicated- The Simpsons! Last time I showed you my picture of Bart Simpson which I was not fully satisfied with (I still am not so I will be editing it):

I am also done with the rest of the family now and that’s what I wanted to share with you guy!
The next one I did after Bart was Homer Simpson- this one took me A WHILE but I am finally pretty satisfied with how it turned out.

Next I did Lisa and I’m pretty happy with this one as well! By this time I had gotten the hang of how to use all the options on the app and was getting a lot better at drawing and colouring so I did not take as long to make this one.

After Lisa, I did Marge. Now her face did not take that long as I was used to drawing their faces now but her hair! Her hair took me more than an hour to get just right but I am super happy with how it turned out and I was even able to shade it!

And lastly, of course I drew Maggie. This one was pretty easy to draw and I love how she turned out!

Apart from that I’ve been doing random paintings like this one. I don’t know why but I just love not actually painting something specific but just splashing paint around.


App for colouring: Paint.Book
App for The Simpsons: ibisPaint X
App for painting: PaperDraw
I hope you guys enjoyed my art- I was so excited to share it with you guys!
Have you guys learnt anything new during quarantine or have you started doing something you really enjoyed but stopped doing? Do you guys enjoy doing art? Have you ever tried art on an app? Do you generally do art on an app or for real? Does art help you manage your mental health? Who’s your favourite character from The Simpsons? Let me know in the comments below- I would love to chat or simply stop by and say hi!
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Art, Anxiety And An Ouch

I thought I would give you guys another little update on what’s going on with me at the moment and also an update on my art stuff. As you may know since I mentioned it a few of my posts I started doing some art again because it sort of helped with my anxiety. I did it on apps because I don’t have a lot of art supplies right now and also it’s just easier to do it on my phone. My anxiety has been a lot better over the last few months in general but I was looking for a relaxing hobby and I saw online that a lot of people recommended art. Studies on art therapy have shown that art can help people with anxiety feel more calmer and also express themselves better through art. And then I wrote a throwback post about my site way back when I started and saw some posts about the charcoal art I used to do and remembered how much fun that was and decided to take up art again.
It has actually helped me with my anxiety. To elaborate a bit more on that- my anxiety causes problems with my concentration. It makes it a bit more difficult for me to concentrate on something and I also get distracted pretty easily when my anxiety is high but with art I need to fully concentrate on the artwork and that has helped me with concentration and staying focused.
I also find art therapeutic because as someone with anxiety my brain is always switched on. Like it’s always chattering in the background and being annoying. There is no off switch and the constant noise can get frustrating sometimes. With art this noise kind of automatically shuts off or I guess I can easily fully ignore it because my brain is fully concentrating on the art and on what I’m doing at that moment. Those I think are the main ways that art and colouring has helped me with controlling my anxiety. It’s also a lot of fun just in general- it is kind of like being a child again which is always a fun treat when you are an adult struggling to adult. Here are some of the artworks I have done so far:

In case you were wondering what app I used for colouring it was Paint.Book.
I have always loved colouring but truth be told I’m more of a drawing person. I like drawing a lot and wanted to draw stuff from scratch. Now the only problem is I’m not great with drawing and I’ve never drawn on my phone before so I did not really know how to do that and it was a lot more difficult than actual drawing but I really enjoyed the challenge and I think I am very slowly but surely getting better at it now that I am getting the hang of how it works.
So, I also got a artbook app where you can basically draw and colour things from scratch and do whatever you want- you’re not limited to what the app provides you with. I’m not going to lie I’ve been binge watching The Simpsons for the last few months so I decided to draw Bartholomew Simpson AKA Bart Simpson. I know it doesn’t look a lot like Bart but this was my first try drawing anything with an app so cut me some slack! I am currently working on the rest of the family.

Moving on to the ouch part. So two days ago I burnt two of my fingers while cooking and yesterday I burnt the side of hand/palm. It’s my right hand and it’s the fingers I use to type so it has been kind of difficult for me to type properly at the moment. If you see any typos in this post or in response to any of your comments I’m not having a stroke it’s just hard for me to type with my left hand. It’s also going to take me a while to respond to your comments as I’m going to have to type slower than usual. My posts may also be a bit shorter than usual this week apart from the ones that I had written prior to the incidents. You may have noticed that I only put up two quotes yesterday even though I usually put up four or five but that was because I literally could not make more than those two.
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In other news, have almost reached a 50 day streak on Duolingo which is super exciting. I was excited to tell you guys that because last time I had lost my 52 day streak and was feeling a little down about it. The weather is getting a bit cooler which is awesome- no offense to people who love summer but I am so looking forward to fall. Oh and as always my WP was acting up over the last few days- my reader stopped working and then some of my comments were either not posting at all or if they posted they went to spam so yeah… That’s about it for this update. Again sorry about any typos but I’m doing the best I can.
What have you guys been up to lately? Have you been learning a new language? Have you ever tried doing art to reduce your anxiety? Have you tried drawing as a way to reduce anxiety? Are you a fan of doing art on your device or you do prefer doing art on a book? Let me know in the comments below because I love to chat even when my fingers are in pain!


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Life Update #3: I Did A Thing…

I thought I would do another little update and let you guys know what’s going on with me at the moment. To be fully honest not too much has changed because of everything that’s still going on. I was kind of hoping the pandemic would be over by now but obviously that is still going on. I hope everyone is trying really hard to stay safe and following the rules because you are not only putting yourself in danger but others too when you refuse to follow the rules. It may seem like everything is back to normal because everything is opening up but it’s not. A blogger I really enjoy wrote an awesome post about this that you can check out by clicking here.
One of the best things I’ve been doing is start learning German again. I’ve been using the Duolingo app and it’s going really well. The last update I did I was on a 52 day streak but unfortunately I lost that streak which seriously hurt but I am back at it again practicing every day. I finished basics and level 1 which is amazing and I am super proud of myself for sticking with it this time.

I have been cooking more and trying to make new recipes at least once a week. Almost everything has turned out well so far and I will be publishing another What I Eat In A Day post soon. Most of the new food I’ve tried is Korean and I think one or two things were Indian. I’m just super into Korean food at the moment and the flavours are kind of perfect for my taste.

As you can tell from the title I also did something new! A while ago I did a throwback post and it reminded me how much I love art. Unfortunately, all my art supplies are in Kenya and I’m in Canada at the moment so I decided to start doing some online artwork on an app called Paint.Book .
It’s been really fun and relaxing. I’ve heard a lot of people saying how beneficial art if for anxiety and I kind of understand now. I will be doing a full review on that for one of my mental health posts but in a nutshell it’s super calming and I will be doing more art for sure. The app turns it into a video for you so I thought I would share some of my favourite with you guys:





I hope you guys enjoyed that little update! What have you guys been up to lately? Is there anything new with you? Have your schools/universities/colleges reopened? Let me know in the comments below!


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Ideal Inspirational Blogger Award

Thank you for the award nomination!

I want to thank Nida Khan for nominating me for this award! She has an awesome blog with book reviews and more. Be sure to check it out by clicking here. 

Rules:

1. Thank the person who have nominated you and provide a link back to his/her blog.
2. Answer their questions.
3. Nominate up to 9 other bloggers and ask them 5 new questions.
4. Notify the nominees through their blog by visiting and commenting on their blog.
5. List the rules and display the “Ideal Inspiration Blogger Award” logo.
6. Provide the link of the Award creator of ideal inspiration blogger award as Rising Star from https://idealinspiration.blog

Questions

What do you do to unwind/destress/relax?
Meditate or watch TV.

Who is your favorite artist or what is your favorite artwork?
My favourite artist right now is DestinyBlue– she’s absolutely brilliant.
DestinyBlue
Do you have a favorite fragrance? What is it?
My favourite is a vegan, cruelty free fragrance from Skylar called Woodsy. You can check out my full review for it by clicking here. 
 
Are you an early-bird type of person, a night-owl, or somewhere in between?
Night owl for sure.

Do you have a favorite movie character? Who is it and from what movie?
Yes, Han Solo from Star Wars!

My Nominees

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An Update On Yesterdays Situation

So this is just going to be a sort of update on the post I put out yesterday. If you haven’t read it you can do so by clicking here to get a better perspective of what I’ll be talking about in this post.
I want to start by thanking everyone who commented on yesterdays post. You guys have  no idea how much your kind words have touched me and just the fact that there are so many amazing people on here means so much! One of the reasons I wanted to delete the awards and go awards free is because I had associated it with negativity but thanks to all your support I feel much better about it and the posts will remain up and I will continue to accept awards on this blog and I will also continue to not pick specific nominees. I feel that my resolution to stop making new award posts and deleting the existing ones came from a place of anxiety attempting to control me and I never want to feel controlled by it. Instead I will choose to face my anxieties and attempt to work on the underlying problems causing it. My anxiety is still there but has reduced a lot and I think I should be fine by tomorrow.

The Bigger Picture

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I think it was particularly frustrating and anxiety inducing for me because it really indicates the bigger problem that’s faced with the internet and the social norms that we are so used to. We are so prepared to aggressively call out and overanalyze everyone without thinking of our own actions. When I attempted to defend myself and explain my position I was told I should put some sort of disclaimer on all my posts or shut off my comments. Why should I do any of those things? I love blogging and if you have a problem with my blog then don’t read it. They claim I leave them on for validation. I can assure you this is not the case. If you’ve ever read any of my posts you will know I love interacting with everyone in the comments and hearing what you have to say. It’s not just my experience, people say that all the time- the internet is a harsh place so if you’re sensitive don’t be online. Let’s change our attitude from this. It’s not about being thick skinned or being able to take criticism it’s about doing what you love. I wish people would just let people just live their life and enjoy what they’re doing. Let’s all make a point of being kinder to one another and if something does bother you please choose your words wisely or better yet just avoid their blog/posts.
Anyway thank you again for all the amazing comments I have read every one of them and will reply as soon as I possibly can! You guys are truly amazing people!
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The cover image used was created by Elaine. Her art is absolutely brilliant and has always been a source of positivity and I thought this image is perfect for this post because it really expresses how I felt after meditating about the situation and getting more control over my emotions.

Disappearing Through The Silence

I have spent the last 8 hours sitting on this chair, staring at this white canvas.

The walls that surround me are all white, they are spotless.

They are pure and innocent, unlike my demons.

I have black paint next to me. The canvas cuts deep in me as it pierces right through me. I know what to paint, but the kicker is…. I do not know how to paint.

See, I do not even know how to draw the simplest of figures.

But here I sit, wondering what the canvas would look like if I could paint my thoughts. Where would I start?

I think I would start with HER.

Would I be able to paint how soft her skin is? I melt every time I touch her. Her skin so soft like it was made by the heavens, but it contains so many secrets I yearn to know. Her skin encloses all that the world should but will never know. She lives in the dark for it is the only safe place she knows. Her skin contains scars that would scare most away, but it brings me closer. Her skin is perfect to the core, but the core is what she does not want you to see. She does not want you to see the madness behind the beauty. Her skin is the beauty that hides all that is wrong with her world. But all that is wrong is what makes her beautiful. Her real beauty is incorporated in all the chaos that she tries to run away from. When I touch her skin, I feel all the pain that has tormented her. But instead of running, I want to run my fingers through her. I want her skin to tell me the stories, that her mouth is too shy to tell. I want to sit on the floor with her and identify every invisible scar that burdens her. I could never paint that.

Would I be able to vividly paint her perfect curves? The curves the others lust for, but I admire as a piece of art. See they do not see her like I do. They see her as a toy, I see her as a work in progress. Her curves distract you from seeing her true beauty, they are lies created as a distraction from her reality. Her curves drive them to only want to be inside her without seeing the inside of her. They care nothing about her intellect, her strive to be great or even her struggle to put on a brave face and smile. They care nothing for her pain or her tolerance to pain. They care nothing for her inability to be disappointed anymore, for she has become numb to the feeling. Her curves make her look lustful when all she is after is safety. The safety she has been after her whole life, the safety where she can be loved unconditionally. Her real curves are incorporated in her journey to be the woman she was always destined to be. Those are the curves I lust for. Those are the curves; I could never paint.

Would I be able to paint how we lost each other? We were close, but never close enough. We spoke but never spoke enough. We hid more than we shared, which is a travesty. “What could have been” is silently lingering in the air. It lingers even when surrounded by the tension of someone else holding her. It creates a language only her and I understand, it is a code created by two people who don’t deserve each other. It is truly remarkable how a few unsaid words could cultivate in what turned to be a “what if ” nightmare. Could you lose someone you never had? Too complicated to be answered by mortal words that do not sting enough. Mortal words could never explain the alternate dimension two people go to when everyone else is around. Their own world where they run to so they could blame each other for what could have been, but never materialized. Where they confess to each other all the things they should have been brave enough to say in the first place. They run to the realm where they know it is too late but refuse to accept it. I could never paint the empty feeling of knowing what could have been.

It was never mine to lose in the first place. That is what I tell myself, whether it is true or not I will never know. What is true is the secret we share knowing that it was ours. It was ours to lose and yes, we did lose it. We lost what took time to create but never materialized. It was created by two people at two different points in their lives. It was created by two people who did not know what the other was creating. Is it not the ultimate irony of life? To only see what you had, after you lost it, but realized you never had it in the first place. It is the ultimate cliche, however this one is different.

This is two people who had their mouths closed off by insecurities and uncertainties, leaving them to walk away from each other. This is two people who deserve to lose each other without ever having one another. Now we sit in the despair of, is it too late to go back? To go back and say a few words to change the future. It is always too late, that I could never paint.

My hands are now covered with paint. The spotless walls are now covered with black streaks. What use to be pure spotless white walls, are now covered with the demons that her and I share. The only thing that is untouched is the canvas. I could never paint her, but I could paint the dimension we share. The safe place we run to when we see each other, so we could scream at each other for what could have been. I can vividly see us in the empty canvas holding each other, confessing all the words we should have said. But time has run out on us.

I say I am happy for her, but I am lying. I say that I am glad she found someone because my demons would have been too much for her, I am lying. I say I am glad she is happy even if it is not with me, I am lying. I say I wish she lied to me and did not tell me how she felt, I am lying. I say it is better to have some of her than none of her, I am lying. Instead I am standing here with painted hands, surrounded by marked walls, thinking about the lies I do not believe in no more.

You can Call it what you want, but I call it moving on. Slowly but surely, I call it moving on.

Still, I could never paint the words we never said. Sadly, we say them to each other now, in secrecy and silence.

For now, the “we” that should have been ours, will remain as empty as this canvas. The “we” that should have been ours, become Her and Him. But our demons will forever collide, when we cross paths. Even HE can not get in the way of that.

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